Hidden Desires

The visitor

You never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back ~Namjoon

Y/N POV
I stand and wave to Joon, who is watching me from the window of the limousine, begging with his eyes for me to call him back to me. Strength is what he needs now as I shake my head no and smile, pointing towards the ground mouthing to him." I'll be right here", and he soon disappears out of sight. I look down at myself and realize that I need to get myself together. Scaling the stairs two at a time, I reach his room and open his closet to see what I can borrow. A hot bath sounds too good right now as I grab a pair of basketball shorts and a t-shirt heading towards the bathroom. After a warm bath and searching through Joons stuff for a hairdryer, I return to the living room to clean up a bit. Seeing my phone lying on the table, I grab it in thought. I cannot let things between my sister and I stay like this; I have to call her.
The phone rang two times, and it picked up without a voice, so I begin to ramble a whole apology stopping abruptly when I hear Jin say "hello." "Jin, can I speak to my sister?" "umm, she is sleeping right now, but I didn't want the call to wake her cause she needs to rest." I giggle, knowing precisely what he meant, "Is she pissed with me?" Jin gives a long sigh, "No Y/N, and it's the opposite; she is mad at herself, but I guarantee you won't hear an ill word about you and Joon from her." She's sleeping right now, but when she gets up, I'll have her call you back. A loud pop resounds in the background on Jin's side of the line followed by Jin letting out a brief, sharp scream followed by "OMG y/n I'll have her call you the top just blew off the pot of ramen I'm cooking." I hear the sizzle of cold water hitting a hot pan, and Jin again screams "ow" before dropping the phone and the line going dead. Shaking my head, thinking typical Jin and mmm ramen, I head to the kitchen to make some food and clean up a little. Bopping around the kitchen to the rhythm of the music, I hear the doorbell ring, stopping, I peek down the stairs to get a glimpse of a car in the driveway. Gripping the railing cautiously descending the steps, the melodic call of the doorbell resounding throughout the foyer; I see a smiling Jimin waving through the glass at each side of the door.

Jimin, joon's cousin, is the epitome of fuck boy and is now glaring at me up and down licking his lips still waving for me to unlock the door since I froze misstep on the stairs realizing I only have on Joons T-shirt after I slipped off the shorts that were too big. Turning and running back up the stairs, I put on the shorts and run back down to let him in. "Hey, beautiful," pushing the door open enough to slide past me, "where's Joon?" Scaling the stairs, I had to run to keep up with him as he enters and lifts the lid off the pot smelling the contents. "Umm, excuse me," snatching back the top, placing it back on the pot. "Why are you here?" "You know damn well Joon left with the grandparents since you flew here with them ." "Joon asked me to check on you before I head to the hospital, and of course, I had to oblige and come check you out." Smiling again with the eyeing me up and down thing he does. "You've checked now leave," I say, rolling my eyes and opening the door but being ignored. Feeling the beginning of a migraine approaching, I message my temples following behind Jimin as he grabs a drink from the fridge and sits at the table, picking up a pair of chopsticks clicking them at me than blowing a kiss. Now realizing I'm going to have to deal with Jimin till Joon returns, " Lord, help me," I mouth retrieving two bowls from the cupboard filling them with the ramen slamming Jimin's down in front of him and slumping into the chair furthest away from him. Several minutes into eating, I feel a hand run across mine. Looking over, I see Jimin had moved into the chair next to me and was rubbing his thumb over the back of my hand, staring at me; before I could snatch away, he tightens his hold and says, "I'm sorry for intruding, and I appreciate the food and company." "You're welcome," I state, pulling away my hand and shooting a slight smile before returning to my ramen and thoughts of Joon.