WHY ME?

Chapter 9: Once again

"It was never us, It's always been you", Jace replied, "by the way Nancy", Jace spoke catching her attention, "she's my hoe and if you mess with her again you'll have to go through me first", Jace grabbed my hand and we walked hand in hand exiting the cafeteria.

We continued walking silently, hand in hand until we ended up in the field both gazing at each other. He anchored his attention on me widening his hazel eyes as if there was something he had to say to me. I gazed dip into him trying to figure out what had actually gotten into Jace, why was he acting like this towards me? What does he want? As much as I enjoyed what was happening to me I couldn't let him kiss me or let him be nice to me whenever he wants to, what do I look like to him- A toy?

"what do you think of yourself?", I said lashing out on him. "Do I look like a toy to you so you keep on playing with my feelings..."

"Jeeez Eliana, I was just trying...",

"Listen up Jace..." I said cutting him off, "I don't care what you were trying to do but every time I try to push myself away from you why do you push yourself back on to me".

For a moment Jace looked confused, He knitted both his brows questioning me "why would you push yourself away from me?"

I lowered my gaze downwards how could I explain it to him, what I felt for him, what his presence does to me but I didn't have the courage to tell him because in the end I'll be the one left with a broken heart. I had to face him, either with the truth or a lie.

"You wouldn't understand", I spoke and turned walking away from him suddenly, Jace grabbed my elbow, pulled me causing me to slam my chest on his.

"Don't walk away from me thinking you have answered my question Eliana". Jace spoke with a fierce voice.

"I already gave you my answer, leave my hand", I spoke trying to push myself away from him.

Jace tightened his grip on both my hands pulling me more closer towards him," What do I look like- a ten year old kid? Who would accept your answer".

At this point I flipped out, since he wants to know the truth I will give it to him. The rate of my heart started increasing before I could even express my words I wasn't ready to get my heart broken once again but at the same time I had to face the courage to heal myself again. I pushed the grip of his hands of me and finally found the courage to express myself, " that's because I'm in love with you and have always been". Jace had a stunned expression. His eyes lit up giving me a sense of happiness he felt towards the words I spoke but soon it narrowed in guilt. "I didn't mean to fall in love with you, but I did. From the very first time I saw you, from the time you helped me from being assaulted, I knew there was something different about you even though I know you change girlfriends multiple times as if you are changing clothes everyday. When you are around me I forgot about everything, me being hurt, betrayed, because all I can focus on is you".

At this point his face held an expression of two personalities it was as if sadness clouded his features expressing a sense of fear, sadness and anger. At the same time his face lit up with joy, excitement and happiness.

Jace grasped for air, "I'm really sorry Eliana, but I don't feel the same about you", he spoke with a touch of sadness in his words. I took a step backward and was in disbelief, his words struck me as lightening. Shattering my heart into pieces, How could he say this after all that had been happening, him kissing me and defending me around Nancy. "So why did you all along kiss me and defend me in-front of Nancy", I spoke as my voice quavered for a moment but regained control before I broke down. "Ohhh, innocent Eliana", Jace spoke giving me a huge smirk "That was just a way of using you so that Nancy could distance herself away from me". I raised my hand and a slap stung his cheek. " You are a complete asshole and a person like you doesn't deserve true love", I turned away running towards the building as tears continuously started falling without control.

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"wake up you lazy bug", I heard Emma speaking as she opened the curtains then climbing onto my bed trying to wake me up. "Leave me alone", I whined pulling the blanket over my head.

"Your uncle and aunt are back", Emma spoke. "Shit!", I tossed up in fear, rolled over falling down. "How could they be back so early from their vacation" I spoke in a worried tone "I haven't done the chores, there is just so much to do", "Relax Eliana, stop being pessimistic I was just joking", Emma spoke sticking out her tongue. I let a low breath out throwing a pillow towards her.

It had been a month since Jace rejected me and I hadn't seen him ever since, he had disappeared in a wink of a light but left a blurry image of his memories. Some part of me felt that Jace wasn't true to me about not liking me, there was something he was hiding from me or perhaps was afraid to tell me because by the way he acted towards me all this time it didn't feel like he was using me, but what could it be.

"Excuse me, if you are done daydreaming please proceed to order", a young boy with a familiar voice I had heard before spoke. I turned to say my apologies but gazed dip into him as I had seen him before and that's when I realized it was Cameron.

"I know you", Cameron spoke placing his index on his cheek trying to figure who I was,"Eliana right". Cameron and I continued having a forceful conversation as Emma made him join our table but little did the master mind know I already knew what she was planning to do.  

HELLO EVERYBODYYYY!!! SORRY FOR TAKING TOO MUCH TIME TO UPDATE A NEW CHAPTER, I HAD A LOT GOING ON BUT I'M BACK. HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOY THIS CHAPTER, ALSO PLEASE COMMENT IF YOU WOULD WANT A POV FOR JACE'S SIDE OF THE STORY. :)