Good thing I left my journal in mother's car. I wouldn't know what to do over this boring car ride. Mother doesn't want to speak to me right now and she doesn't want to turn on the radio, so what is there to do? Write about my life long problems?
Correct. That's exactly what there is to do.
I just can't believe she's taking me to the doctor. Again. There's no reason to go. No fucking reason, at all. She just wants to see me suffer. Suffer in my own pain and fucking misery.
Guess what mom.
IT'S WORKING YOU BITCH!
All in a matter of two days I fail a pop quiz, think about that situation with Terra, lose it in class, get into a fight with Cooper, and get suspended.
I feel like everyone is trying to watch me fail. My life is crumbling around me. EVERYTHING IS. Everything was fine until I started to act differently.
...Until I got these damn thoughts in my head.
The thoughts won't leave me alone. Every second, every minute now, something disturbing pops into my head. My life is not only crumbling around me, but my sanity is fading away.
Wait, did I just call myself insane?
I'm not insane. I'm normal, remember?
I just have to say one thing. I don't know how much longer I'll be able to control myself. I've seen the movies. The mentally ill and insane write in journals about their.. fantasies until one day, it finally becomes real to them. The beautiful thing they created with their mind, they just as easily created it with their hands.
If my hands could create what my mind creates, that'd be amazing.
Something I won't do is tell the truth. I am not going to tell the doctors what's wrong with me. What's wrong with my head. That just stays between me and this journal only because people will become afraid of me. They'll send me away.
I'm perfectly fine and safe. I'm fun to be around and loving. They'll send me away from everyone, locking me up in a mental institution, somewhere I don't belong.
This journal is the only thing where my secrets are safe. This journal is my only friend.
Joseph
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Dirty Little Secret
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