"I don't mind people using me for my money. As long as they can fill my days temporarily with their company. And I don't mind you leaving since I know you have your own life to live." My smile fades away when Yoongi frowns at me.
"Is it true what that Namjoon guy said? That you always keep to yourself? That you never reach out to others?" Yoongi asks and I nod. "Why?" I sigh out angrily.
I don't want to talk about this anymore.
"Can we just stop now please-"
"(y/n), why do you push people away?"
"I don't want to burden them and cause them to leave me behind!" I abruptly stand up and push my chair away.
I just want to go to sleep.
I was about to walk off to my bedroom but Yoongi stops me, grabbing my shoulders.
"Yoongi. Let me go-"
"You're lonely. You want company yet you push people away. You're afraid that if you get too close with them, they will hurt you if they leave you behind."
"Cut it out Yoongi! Let me go!"
"Yet you let yourself get hurt by helping them."
"Yoongi, just stop-"
"-why do you hurt yourself like this?"
"And what about you!? Why do you care!? Why do you suddenly care about me so much when you're just going to leave like the rest of them!? Why ask me these questions!? Just leave already!" I harshly shove Yoongi away from me, yelling at his face as he stumbles over his feet.
"(y/n) I-"
"You don't let people help you. Why? You get mad from any sign of pity or remorse. You push away those who want to help you. Why-"
"Cause nice people like you that seem to want to help me just stabs me in the back and throws me away when they got what they wanted from me! Everyone looks out for themselves and for not for anyone else! Why should I trust people that act all nice!?" Yoongi yells, taking a few steps forward towards me. We stare at each other, our bodies shaking from anger. Yoongi was the first to calm down but I was still furious.
"You're right! Why should you trust me Yoongi!? I'm using you for my own benefit like you said right!? Using you to chase away my own loneliness, fine! You got me! You are so right Yoongi! I'm like those other people right!? Using you to just get what I want right Yoongi!? So just leave! Just leave me Yoongi! Just go and leave me and-" I gasp out loud when Yoongi suddenly wraps his arms around me, holding me tightly to his chest. I don't know what to do and stood still, my body being uncomfortable from being hugged. He doesn't say anything, his face hidden in my hair as he just held me and my body slowly softens against his hold. I could hear his heart thumping at a fast pace and I know that mine was the same. Yoongi still doesn't let me go long after my heart calms to a steady rhythm, he just held me tightly as his tail curled around my bandaged arm.
