Thoughts

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I realised that it took him half an hour
To make me like him
Even if I kinda liked someone else
On the mountain
It was when I actually started to like him
And then he gave me some attention
And that was all
Then he completly ignored me
And I was left with all the feelings
Sometimes I thought that
Maybe he like me
But then I realise how foolish is that
Because he doesn't know me
So he has nothing but a face to like
And that face is not likeable
And I want someone to fall for me
For my personality
On the mountain he was himself
Because he wasn't with anyone from the gang
So he wouldn't have any reason
To hide how he was
Also, he is always like that
Not afraid to say what he thinks
Not afraid of the truth
So if he liked me
He would have said something
Amd sometimes I think he likes someone
Who doesn't like him
And that's even sadder
That he is in this situation too
I feel like we could be friends
Maybe
One day
He made me give up on those feelings
By talking to me
That was the closure I needed
And three weeks of holiday
With nothing related to him

In a way
Is better he didn’t have to give me something
For secret santa
Because I have nothing to remember me of him
So I can finish easier
But not on being friends
I really want this

Maybe now
That I give up on these feelings
We can be friends
Only now