There was something awfully disappointing about waking up the next morning. How was Ellie supposed to live through the day without Cassie to talk to? What happened to their chat always being open? What happened to best friends forever? Or did those rules only apply in the perception Ellie had in her head?
Morosely, she switched her cellphone on and stared at the shortcut she'd created to Cassie and her's chat box. She gulped and deleted it. Deciding she had nothing better to do, aside from Cassie and her new friends from school she had no one really, she turned on her television. Half an hour later she realized a sappy Disney show about two best friends sticking together no matter what was probably not the best distraction. So she put on some music. Of course, when you're feeling down ironically enough you play the saddest songs on hand, which, again, did not exactly help Ellie.
She simply couldn't take it anymore.
Ellie: i can't do this. i just spent an hour watching this new disney show, where one best friend was about to give up on the other but then decided that they needed each other. and to top it all off i just listened to the most nostalgic song in history.
Ellie: there's got to be a better option than this. i can't do it and it's literally only been one morning. i couldn't even have breakfast.
October 19th
Dear diary,
My fifteenth birthday is just around the corner. I hoped it would be one to remember, what with a whole new group of friends and all, but it looks like the most important part of my life just had to be yanked away from me by then. Cassie and I have fallen apart. And even if we miraculously reconcile, we will never be the same again. Our friendship has become much to fractured to melt back into the wonderful, innocent manifestation of our relationship it used to be; and it kills me.
Stupid, and slightly selfish, as it sounds, I was really looking forward to seeing the birthday present Cassie would make me.
On that note, I still have a few sketches I hadn't had a chance to give her. I practically begged if I could see her just one more time to give them to her and to hug her one last time, I simply can't bear to have them here anymore, but neither could Cassie apparently.
Anyway, unless a miracle happens, it looks like this birthday will be a very non-memorable and pessimistic one.
Love, Ellie
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Let her go
القصة القصيرة"If one of us lets go, we'll both fall." A not-so-typical story about the beauty and tragedy of friendship between two girls who can't even love themselves.
