El Desperado One Shot Collection

Not Enough

Pairing: El Desperado/FC

Category: Angst/Smut

Word Count: 999

Warnings: Smut, language, alcohol use

"I don't like seeing you happy" And "I told you not to get too close to me."

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Seeing the drunken form of your ex-boyfriend Kyosuke Mikami, more commonly known as Desperado, leaning on your doorstep you were grateful your current boyfriend had dropped you at the corner at your insistence. Made no sense for him to fight through the overcrowded conditions in front of your house just to drop you off. Instead you had said your goodbyes at the corner, walking the half block to your house drunk on love. You could only imagine what Desperado would do if confronted with your new love. His violent tendencies were no secret.

"Bout time you made it home." He growled looking up at you with bloodshot eyes. "If I had known you would be out whoring around all night I would have come by another time."

Hurt flared in your chest at his cruel words, tears pricking at your eyes. You didn't like that he could still elicit that response, but drunk Desperado had always known how to hurt you the most.

"Did you come here just to be a dick? Because if so you can fuck off." You told him, stepping around his body as you put your key in the door. His hand grasped your calf making you look down at him in irritation.

"I'm sorry. It's just...I don't like seeing you happy" He admitted glaring down the street where your long departed boyfriend had dropped you off. You felt a bit guilty realizing he had seen your goodbye but you shoved that away. You weren't with him anymore, you were free to do as you wished.

"Well that's too bad Desp." You said tripping over the familiar nickname. "You were the one who ruined what we had. I loved you. I wanted to be with you forever. But you couldn't keep your damn dick in your pants." You pushed into your house leaving the door open though you knew you should slam it in his face. You watched as he pushed himself up the doorframe and stepped inside, shutting the door and locking it in his wake.

"I told you not to get too close to me." Desperado reminded you. "I warned you. I told you I would hurt you. I never asked you to fall in love with me. I never asked to fall in love with you." He advanced anger rising in his voice as he gained ground.

"You have a funny way of showing your love." You said bitterly. "Did you really expect me to hang around when you came home smelling like a different woman every night?"

"But I still came home to you!" He snapped back. "I came home to you!" You turned your back in the face of his hurt. You couldn't bear to look at him when he was pouring his heart out. Misguided as he was, Desperado did love you. You had no doubt about that. He just didn't know how to love. To him the fact that he came home to you every night erased every wrong deed he committed.

"I think you need to go." You said quietly, hugging yourself as your old feelings surfaced. That was the wrong thing to say as it flipped a switch in Despy, the next thing you knew he had you on your back on the couch with his body pinning you down.

"Why? Expecting lover boy to make a return?" he spat. "Need me to leave so he can come fuck you?" Desperado ground his hips down on you making you feel the quickly hardening cock beneath his jeans. "Can he fuck like I do? Does he make you scream and beg for more?"

You gasped as he grabbed your breasts his fingers squeezing the globes as you tried to ignore the fire that was starting to burn in your stomach. Your protests stayed on your lips as he pushed his hands under your shirt and bra fingers finding your nipples and pinching them. Instead you moaned arching your back into his touch as he brought his lips to yours.

"He can't make you feel like this can he?" Desperado groaned against your mouth twisting your nipple as he pressed his cock between your legs. "Tell me!"

"No! He doesn't!" you shouted pulling Desperado's mouth back to yours while he reached between your bodies and pushed your pants down your legs followed by his. You kicked your legs to free them and wrapped them around Desperado's waist pulling at his hair as you kissed him, desperate to have him inside you.

He pushed his cock into your pussy stretching you with his thickness as he slowly entered you.

"I can tell he doesn't fill you like I do." Desperado grinned against your mouth. "I bet you missed this, didn't you?"

You hummed in agreement, rocking your hips in time with Desperado's thrusts. Releasing his hair you reached between your bodies, rubbing your swollen clit as Desperado pounded into you his grunts a familiar sound in your ear as you chased the pleasure only he seemed able to give you. Your bodies slid together in a familiar rhythm, legs cinching around his waist as you pressed on your clit, cumming with a loud drawn out moan swallowed by Despy's mouth as he lowered it to yours. His hips stilled as you felt his seed erupt inside you, his body falling on top of yours. Breathing heavily you ran your fingers through his hair as his head rested on your chest.

"I can't let you go." He mumbled into your breast. "You're mine. I love you and I'm a fuck up, but I can't let you walk away."

You didn't respond. Anything you said was going to lead to another fight. Despite what had just happened you couldn't go back to the heartbreak you experienced with Desperado. Sometimes love just wasn't enough.