With yet another new year approaching
I make a firm decision
My heart's on my sleeve
with third degree burns
in constant pain
and in the final stages of healing
That I will no longer feel
won't shed a tear
won't let anyone know
or see my weaknesses
No
NOT ANOTHER YEAR
The last time I cried
was truly for the last time
The person who everyone knew as emotional
HAS DIED
Maybe I'll still have them
but keep them locked up
chained away
starving
dying
on the inside
But they will never escape again
to spill over and leak onto my outsides
for everyone to see
To look at me with pity
or worse yet
to judge me
Whether I'm happy or sad, you'll all be left to wonder
Until my final days
when i take that eternal slumber
NO MORE tears of joy or sorrow
When that clock strikes midnight
and today becomes tomorrow
The genuine smile that you've come to know and love
you will only see in the photo frames
or when Heaven finally calls my name.
Shhh...I'm trying to tell a story. DLL
