Ok so
I needed to be near you
Hold you closer
Feel you breathe
Have you right by my side
Like you were a part of me
Keep your heart in my hand
Hold you dear
But I couldn't let you in
For fear that you would see it all
and run screaming for the hills
All of my brokenness
Every weakness
The struggle of living
through the insanity
that is me
I wanted to walk with you
shoulder to shoulder
Our hands touching
Swinging
Cliche
But I thought
it would cross all of my boundaries
Tear down all of my walls
And without any of my solid foundations
I was afraid
that I would fall
I was scared
that you wouldn't catch me
I was terrified
that you wouldn't care
But in the back of my mind
I think I was more afraid
that I had hope
that you would be there
In the midst of my panic
When I searched myself for an anchor
I felt a calm take completely over in the eye the storm
When I felt you wrap your love around my pinky
I knew that you would never leave.Shhh...I'm trying to tell a story! DLL
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