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kjn.
I was ten when I first met him. They just move next to our apartment, on the other hand I'm leaving for New Zealand. The only thing I remember was his Nintendo and his face was quiet a blur to me.
Five years later, I was already fifteen when I came back in Korea. It was my last year in middle school and he's graduating in highschool.
His name was Jongin.
I don't like him but I don't even know why I'm so nervous around him. Maybe that's one of so many reasons I don't have the courage to talk to him. He makes me feel nervous. Very nervous I couldn't even look at him or maybe I'm good at pretending he never exist.
His face didn't even match either Hanbin or Taehyung's handsome faces. Or Lee Taeyong's charisma. He's below average in my opinion but I'd be lying if I say he wasn't attractive.
He has the great body at the very young age that could walk on GQ or a model for Gucci and Calvin Klein. His face and body would best suit but I doubt if he ever considered modeling. He's too serious and uptight to waste his time on that stuff.
He transferred when I was finally in highschool. Our first decent interaction accidentally happened at the park. Although I still feel embarrassed after he went up to me thinking I was calling him. Turns out he was mistaken since he has the same nickname with my dog.
Kai.
"Nice name," I whispered in a smile, hiding my nervousness.
I thought he didn't hear me but he smiled and chuckled a bit. "I never imagine sharing the same name with a dog."
Our first conversation didn't last long since he still has school. College is different and he's taking up a pre-med course, I heard. So, he's always busy.
I bet he never even dated anyone at this point. But I think he should or else Med school after college will not allow him to date anymore.
College came. I didn't know we were in the same university until that one fateful encounter in the bus. He has this earphone with his eyes close while holding a book. He looks tired and I bet the earphone was meant not to disturb him.
I was hesitant at first to sit next to him but I have no choice since there wasn't any seat available anymore.
I glance at him once again and decided to put on my earphone too. I bit my lip feeling the fast beating inside my chest. I look at him and he's still sleeping.
Watching him sleep made me smile. For some reason I don't want really want to know.. or I'm scared to find out.
When the bus stop in front of the university, he immediately stood up as he predicted without throwing a glance at me.
I know it was kinda rude but I understand he might have something important matter at hand knowing his course.
I was left dumbfounded at how he amaze me for the first time. I made a quick scan on his uniform and he looks so good wearing that white polo and white slacks.
The bus started moving I almost forgot I should got out. I was already half-running to the gate and scared to be late when I bump into someone.
"Chuseonghamnida!" (I'm so sorry!)
I took a step back when I saw it was Jongin. He smiled. I didn't. I'm too fucking nervous and panting at the same time to even smile at him. I bet I look like a mess!
"I know you.." He trailed off trying to think where did he saw me.
I was about and ready to smile at him but then I did not try to anymore. To hear I only look familiar at him and he never remembered my face made me disappointed.
I memorized everything about him. From his face and his voice. His height and even his laughter when he's with his dogs at home. I bet he never knew I played with his dogs too at park.
"Sorry?" I furrowed my brows and faked a smile. "Uh, I gotta go."
I left and didn't look back anymore.
Last thing I heard about him before he graduates, he got a girlfriend. Her name is Krystal. She's really pretty, tall and kind.
They look like some actor and actress leading a role in a kdrama. They're that perfect it makes me feel a bit jealous. I don't even know why I'm jealous!
I don't even know I grew a slight crush on him like of all the guy why would I chose to like someone like him?
"Hi. Haven't seen you for a while. How are you?" He asked me one morning I was walking with my dogs at the park.
He was with his girlfriend, looking so pretty next to him. They looks like they just woke up from a good sleep.
Of course it was a good sleep being next to your love ones in bed and waking up to see them in the morning.
That's one of my bucket list but I still haven't had the chance to have a boyfriend. How sad it is.
"I'm good. How's Med School?" I smiled at him and then to his girlfriend clinging next to him.
She didn't smiled but she wasn't bitchy either. She just stood there uninterested to whatever we are talking. She looks rather bored.
Jongin laughed. "Same old same. Can't even have a decent sleep. I rarely even make time with my girlfriend because I'm always busy or sleeping.."
"You're always busy you already look like you don't really have a girlfriend at all.." Krystal spat dryly.
"Well.." Jongin chuckled, he looks apologetic when he turn to me.
I smiled and bowed before leaving them. I could even hear his girlfriend throwing some laments.
