Jump (hawks x depressed reader)

jump

WARNING SUICIDE

I am fully aware that I am about to experience the greatest pain of a lifetime, but I am doing it to save myself from a lifetime of pain. To jump now is to sacrifice the joy I might experience just to end the current pain. Yet the chance of that satisfaction is slim soon it will be none, but I still go ahead, I still jump knowing the consequences.(thats my actual suicide note if in the future i take a long walk off a short clif.) I turn to face the roof of the building I have spent the last few months of my life. Today I quit. I spent most of my day at work in hopes to drowned out the meaninglessness of my life. I take a deep breath and lean back. Falling, I feel the air engulf me as my life flashes before my eyes. I won't miss it. Yet when I stop. When everything was meant to end I noticed I was being held. Someone had 'saved' me. I open my eyes to see none other than the number two hero,(this takes place after the fall of allmight) hawks. He sets me down and right before he speaks I bolt off as fast as I can. To me the word hero has been tainted. Seeing that they were heroes, I have no respect for the word.

Time skip brought to you by my lack of motivation (to live)

I got back my job, and it's been a few weeks since the' incident' I tried to smile, to say I was ok but to be honest I still felt the way I did that night. After he 'saved' me I didn't want to jump again, maybe I'd try something else. Maybe I'd jump from somewhere else. But all I know is I don't want to see that smug face, that condescending smirk that makes me sick. He makes me sick. After a long stressful day at work, staying late, I finally walked home. Walking past a dark alleyway I felt a hand grab me and jerk me in. Honestly I didn't scream. At this point death was welcomed. But once again the sweet release of death was taken from me by the same crimson winged hero.

a/n thought id leave you on a cliffhanger UwU..... ahhhhhhhhhhhh this is stressful to wright, never has a character been so relatable to me.