Jump (hawks x depressed reader)

this is it...

Your pov

I'm walking.

Scratch that, I'm running.

Running away from my problems again. And yet at the same time, I'm facing them head on.

So what if I'm going back, I know it's stupid, but I need to end this. I need to settle this once and for all.

And yet why am I scared? Is it that I dont want to go through with this anymore?

No, no more stupid thoughts, no more fearing the inevitable. This is something that has a timer on it. If I don't do it now, I might chicken out before I get the chance.

Ha ha chicken

Stepping onto the train I stare longingly out the window. I knew none of this would last. If only I had the strength to stay with you.

And then again, somehow the scenery is so peaceful. So peaceful I get lost in the colorful gradation of the sunset, the clouds drifting through the sky without a care in the world. Oh how I long to be among those clouds. How envious I am of him, getting to soar among them whenever he pleases.

If I stay with him I can fly among them aswell.

Or I might just weigh him down...

The train screeches to a halt at my stop. These streets are oh so familiar. As they should be, seeing I've walked here everyday for years.

Miserable years I wish not to remember.

I walk up the stairs.

This is it...