I woke up feeling fine and ignored the constant you're genderqueer, you're genderqueer, you're genderqueer thought niggling the back of my mind.
It was only when I arrived at school I realised I couldn't do this alone. So I texted my friend, let's call them Sloth because they love sloths and also are a teeny weeny bit lazy🤣, that I needed to show her something. Then I straight up told them.
They looked so shocked that my date (I know that's probably not the right word but I'm trying not to use gendered pronouns, for their safety since they never agreed to be in this book) got involved. Let's call them Luna, because the name means moon and their birthstone is a moonstone. They asked me what had been going on and was instantly supportive and amazing ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜
They stayed with me in the bathroom as I cried, even though we were missing lessons.
Throughout the day, I told more and more people what was going on in my brain.
One kid, let's call them Picasso because they're really good at drawing and love doing abstract and surreal pieces, was in quite a bad place so I felt bad for telling them. When I told Picasso I needed to tell them something, they acted all cross, probably because Luna and I were laughing so Picasso just though it was something rubbish like a crush. That's on us though because Picasso is lovely and when we told them, they started crying. Maybe they felt bad? Maybe it was bringing back bad memories of some sort? Maybe... Maybe they didn't accept me?
After that spectacle, I told my best friend, Butterfly, and they were so upset that I knew right then that they would support me.
However, (I know, this chapter is very boring so if you want to get into the other stuff you can skip it if you want) my other best friend I knew wouldn't accept me. They're amazing and an incredible friend but (let's call them... Orbee🤣) I just wasn't sure... Orbee had told me a few years ago that they didn't understand non-binary people because what clothes were they supposed to wear? And also, whenever I bring up the LGBTQ+ community, they instantly change the subject. People tell me not to be friends with them but it's not that simple. We've been besties since we were two.
Despite that, I was starting to calm down now, though I didn't participate in last period and spent the time reading a murder mystery (well what else?).
Thank you so much everyone I could not do this without you❤️
I am so lucky to have supportive friends✨💖🤩😘
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My Adventures In Gender
Non-FictionSo I'm just confused about my gender. I searched for stuff like "greygender" and "polygender" to see if it would help and there was nothing. So I can't get support online if my gender isn't even acknowledged. So this is just a journal where I can ta...
