Now some people don't like labels, but right now all I want is a label for my flipping gender identity!
I feel mostly agender, but partly, just partly, just a lil bit female.
I googled and googled it but there was nothing. Nothing. I googled this: gender that is a tiny bit female
And this: gender that is only partly female
And this: gender that is no gender and female
And this: agender and female
Have you all discovered your gender identity yet? Not that there's pressure to, you have your entire life to so it's fine, really. It's just -- idk. I have always wanted labels. When I thought I was depressed, I couldn't identify as depressed because I "hadn't been diagnosed". It's not that I wanted an excuse, I just wanted to know why I was like this. I wanted to get tips on how to fix myself.
Recently, I discovered a mental health disorder called DPD or depersonalisation disorder. I think I may have it but like I said, no diagnosis.
DPD
You feel disconnected with the world. It's like being drunk sort of but all the time. All. The. Damn. Time. You can't remember much, and the feeling of having a "memory" is unknown. You can't feel. You are tired most of the time. There are worse moments - sometimes I can only hear one thing at once and have to concentrate to see, hear, feel, touch and taste properly. I have to concentrate.
Close your mouth and nose and blow. Keep blowing. Register the feeling - this is what my worst is like.
Anyway, my gender identity. I'm so damn confused! I love it when people use gender-neutral pronouns but also female pronouns but when people call me a girl I get dysphoria. When people call me a boy I get EUphoria but when people use male pronouns I hate it??? What is this I hate it I can't I can't hellllp!
My Gender Identity
Pronouns
She/her or they/them
Likes being called
A boy or agender
HATES
Male pronouns and being called a girl
What is wrong with me? Is this normal? What's my gender identity???
YOU ARE READING
My Adventures In Gender
No FicciónSo I'm just confused about my gender. I searched for stuff like "greygender" and "polygender" to see if it would help and there was nothing. So I can't get support online if my gender isn't even acknowledged. So this is just a journal where I can ta...
