your the reason I'm living (Completed!)

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and she had just a brownish lipstick, i had tears rolling down my face, i kissed her forehead and put a cat stuffed animal under her hands, making her hold it, " see?..i told you I'll come through, I did it baby, I kept my promise" i whispered and grinned with tears, i then caressed her cheek, "my beautiful girl" i whispered and kissed her forehead one more time before walking to Nara, she then turned to me and hugged me, "oh hobi!!!' she screamed crying, "she was my only family i had left, she cared for me, she loved me...she treated me differently from others" she said still crying, "shhhh...i know, i know" i said hugging her back, i rubbed her back,

she cried so much i don't think she could breathe, then when she pulled away she coughed from crying to much, we stayed there for awhile before leaving to the barring ground, me, Nara, Lily, and Roger sat in the chairs up front, there was a tent over our heads, everyone else was standing quietly behind us and around us, including the members, in front was the closed casket, the preacher talking, and a big sized picture of Rana, the frame was covered with flowers, she was smiling showing her pearly white teeth, i wanted to cry again looking at that picture, then after a minute the preacher gave us a American flag (since we're in America right now), i let Nara keep it because that was her sister, then as he walked aside i stood up and walked up there, i turned towards everyone, they looked at me confused, i took a deep breath and spoke, "today we're here because someone very special and important to us all has passed on......Li Rana...was her name, she was 23 years old and so beautiful, not only on the outside but inside as well, she was kind, loving, and goofy, she didn't like being told what to do, when she was alive she tried to drink beer, i told her no because of her health, well, that was my mistake" i said and they laughed by my last comment, "she got angry saying how she can choose to spend her life,

we had such fun, before we started dating we went on our first date, she knew all the songs from Frozen 2 because of her sister Li Nara, so as we watched it she sung along, which got us kicked out, i promised her I'd finish it with her later, but never got the chance to, her laugh was wonderful, when we first met i was trying to act cool, i said how i liked some shorts and she requested me to try them on, so i did and turns out they were woman shorts, she laughed her butt off, but made it up to me by finding man shorts, I've hurt her in unspeakable ways, and in that moment, she still forgave me, and tbh i didn't deserve the love she gave me, but...she said i deserved every bit of it" i said crying, "and...and, without her i think i wouldn't have understood a girlfriend's love, we even talked about our future together, we spoke how we would get Married and have kids, but now........it's just a dream" i said and wiped my tears, they then clapped sadly, Nara then came up and sung, she sung about her sister (obviously) she sung 'it only hurts when I'm breathing' by Shania Twain she started tearing up singing, after the song we talked for a bit put flowers on the casket and the preacher said a prayer over Rana's casket, then it was time to leave, they started burring her after we left,

<<2 weeks later>>>

it has been 14 days since Rana's funeral, I'm upset but i know she wouldn't want me to be sad, she'd want me to move on, we had 8 minutes before we go back to Korea, we already said bye to everyone, and soon we'll have to go back to our K-pop star lives, i was packing getting ready when jin walked to me, "i stopped by the hospital to pick something up...the doctor texted me saying you needed it" jin said and handed me a CD, i looked confused as he lifted a brow and went back to his room, i put it in my laptop and watched it, before packing the rest, it showed Rana, she was alive, she was sitting on the hospital bed, i had tears, this was old because she had hair in a messy bun, Rana doesn't have hair, then she waved and smiled, "hi hobi, yes...your probably sad over my death, well don't be...i want you to be just as happy as i am, with god and Jesus and angels,

I'm making this CD so you can see me alive and not feel alone...i love you hobi, don't forget that, and since I've passed by the time you see this, i hope you will move on from me and start a new and fresh relationship and start your own family, but, i do want to sing afew songs for you, if that's okay" she said and cleared her throat, i smiled and had tears roll down my face, she sung 'but it's a nice dream' by dusty springfield and she sung 'kiss me goodbye' by petula clark, after singing she smirked at me, "remember those songs, they mean something to me, and i think they mean the same for you as well, I'll always love you Jung hoseok, kiss me goodbye" was her last words as she smiled kinda weakly before the video ended, i wiped my tears and put the CD in my bag along with my laptop, so basically you know, it isn't easy forgetting such a wonderful person as Rana, my whole trip in L.A has been confusing, fun, a blast, and so much more, but it's all because of her, i know she's in a better place,

so as i board this plane going back to Korea or wherever to start another adventure i will always remember, even though I'll try to keep my promise to her, she'll always have a special place in my heart,

i love you Li Rana

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