School Of Death

The descision

I was broken, and not just any kind of broken. I became a completely different person. I couldn't remember the last time I cracked a joke, laughed, or made anyone laugh. Momwas beginning to notice my unusual behaviour.

I felt that there was a hole in my chest and the loneliness and emptiness of each day widened it. One similar day mom called me for dinner. When I didn't come down at the table for too long, mom came upstairs. She found me lying down aimlessly and yes did I mention that I had stopped crying. I didn't cry anymore. A single tear couldn't escape my eyes and maybe this is what I call hopelessness. Yes I was completely hopeless about Kevin, about me, about life about everything.

"Laura! That's enough, no more than enough, you keep acting like you don't exist, and I keep feeling that I once had a daughter. Honey that's it now you are going to a boarding school. Trust me it will keep your mind off that dog Kevin."

His name stabbed in my chest like a sharp knife further deepening my wounds. Then I recalled her words, wait did she just say boarding school, this was too much to absorb. "Mom I am fine and I need no boarding school" I faltered. "Laura, whatever I say is for your benefit, you don't know how relieved you will be once you get there, there will be so much activity that you won't have time for such stupid thoughts and plus there will be better and more sincere boys than Kevin." His name again, and i just couldn't believe it my mom was sending me away from home to a boarding school with boys.

"But mom..." I complained. She raised her hand probably a gesture to say shut up and then I heard her voice which put a full stop to this conversation. "Laura you are going to boarding school and that's my final descision."

My life had taken a new turn from that very day.