The Cupid Players [On Hold/ Heavy Construction]

Chapter 22

I keep up my blank expression as I look at them. They're faces are scrunched up in anxiousness and worry.

They look so cute

No, they don't

Oh yes they do. Oh yes you do. *Baby sounds*

Oh my goodness will you ever grow up! Isn't the subconscious the one that's supposed to be smart and well... Mature?

Nope

I give up.

I sit there, mulling over what to say. I really want to forgive them -which I've already done in my head- but I don't want them to think that they can get away easily with such things. They mean a lot to me and I plan on keeping them in my life.

Connor is a constant but Jordan... He's only staying because he's best friends are my closest friends. I do have a crush on him, don't get me wrong but I want to be in a relationship with someone who really likes me, not because I sassed
him or whatever.

Who knows, maybe he'll get tired of my craziness and attitude and go back to Kimberly, leaving me with a broken heart. Not gonna happen. I've experienced my share of humiliation, heartbreak and pain, don't need a repeat.

Ugh I so wish someone would tell me what to do at the moment. Not having a girlfriend is really a no-no when you're a girl. I really have to enlarge my friend circle, by adding a few girls. No more guys. Why did Angelina have to be at a boarding school? She would've known what to say and do right now!

Ugh I need chocolate!

"Lil?" I'm disturbed by Connor's hand waving in front of my face. "What- Eh, what?" I fumble blinking to get my senses back. He smirks and I turn crimson. "I zoned out again, didn't I?" I mutter, biting my lower lip. He chuckles and nods his head.

"I just need me some chocolate, nothing much." I shrug looking at the rest of the guys. The look of slight relief is contoured on their faces and I raise a questioning eyebrow.

What's wrong with them?

You really need to stop zoning out Lily.

Yeah, yeah. But what's wrong with them?

You're supposed to tell them you forgive them and are willing to leave this in the past as long as they don't repeat what they did.

Oh...

And you say I'm the immature one *eyeroll*

"Guys I forgive you and I'm willing to leave this in the past as long as you agree that there won't be a repeat of what happened." I say in one breath and look at them.

Their eyes widen comically and I suppress a giggle. "Oh?" Ian asks in slight daze. "Yep." I nod. " You guys really mean a lot to me. It might not seem that way, but it is. I know we've not been friends for a long time but I've come to enjoy your company. What you did for me Ian meant a lot, even though it was unnecessary, I appreciate it. You really helped me a lot. And you Luke, it might not seem like we get each other but just a smile from you and my day gets better. Connor no need to say anything about you 'cause you already know how much you mean to me." I chuckle.

I turn to Jordan, "As for you, we'll talk later but I want you to know that I consider you as a friend. You did save me at the party after all and I'm grateful for that." He nods his head with a slight smile. I look at the guy with a smile, "Don't forget guys, you each own 16% of my heart. And it's forever yours. Cool?" I enquire.

"Cool." The nod with smiles. "Great!" I beam at them and take a bite of my apple. "You owe me a chocolate deluxe." I say with a wicked grin. "And I know just the place."

***Time Skip***

"How did you find you find this place?!" Ian exclaims sipping on his vanilla deluxe. Turns out they have different flavours, from chocolate, vanilla, strawberry, caramel, choco-mint, hell name it and they got it!

"I don't know Ian. I really don't" I answer with a chuckle. We were at the cafe and the guys were all holding their deluxes.  I had spent the rest of lunch telling them about my chocolate experience.  To say they were jealous would be an understatement of the millennium.

Right after school I dragged them here, them being; Ian, Luke and Connor. Don't ask me where Jordan is, I don't know either but he did say he'll meet us up later.

"I'm so bringing Chester here." Ian says with a mouthful. "Who's Chester?" Connor asks the same question I was going to ask. "He's my nephew." He answers briefly with an adoring smile on his face. "Oh. I didn't know you had siblings." I state in curiosity. His expression turns cold, colder than I had seen in Ian's face for a brief moment before he regains himself. "Yeah. I don't." He answers with a forced smile, the same one he gave me at the beach.

My throat tightens and my eyes widen in shock. "Oh, cool then." I mumble after regaining my composure. His head jerks to my direction and I raise an eyebrow in question. He gives me a  barely there smile but his eyes shine with admiration.

One thing I've learnt in my 17 years of living is to never apologize when there's no need, especially when it comes to death. I know a lot of people who have lost people in their lives and the only thing they need to hear is that it's going to be alright. Apologising only makes them feel like you pity them, they don't always see that you're trying to comfort them, so the best way to comfort them is to; drop the subject. Don't remind them when you know you wouldn't like it if it happened to you.

Don't get me wrong, you can try and get them out of depression if they're depressed, but people like Ian only need people that they know will be there when they need a shoulder to cry on and I'm willing to be that shoulder for him. He has been with me when I needed a shoulder and I'm eternally grateful for that. He didn't try to persuade me to forgive them or tell me what to do, he just made sure that I was happy and whatever happens or what decision I make, I know that he'll fully support me. That's what friends are for and I'm grateful to have him as a friend.

We continue chatting about everything and anything that happened the past week. I laughed at how they described they're misery when we weren't hanging out together.

When we were done we payed and this time I payed -with a lot of disapproval from the guys- and we left. "Oh Connor." I call him from the passenger seat. He hums in acknowledgement and I continue, "The parentals are home and I was wondering if you wanted to see them." He immediately nods his head and I chuckle at his eagerness. He was always excited when he saw my parents. He loved them dearly and never missed a day when they were home. My parents considered him as they're third child, and as for me, my annoying brother but who I love nonetheless.

We always caused trouble together, especially when Nathan was home. It was the best of times.

We park at my house and Connor and I jump out of the car, shouting a bye at the guys and head up the porch. Ian enthusiastically waves back while Luke shakes his head and smiles in response, reversing out of the driveway. I climb up the stairs and open the door with Connor behind me.

"Honeys, we're home!" Connor and I shout before mom's squeal echos in the house. "My babies!"

My babies!!!

How's you doing? Long time no update. I was so hung up on school, whoever said studying online is easy, was lying! They did warn me tho that grade eleven is no child's play but they got one thing wrong; I am a child!

Ok back to the important stuff, how was the chapter? The writer's block I had was beyond imaginable and I'm pretty proud of my self for even finishing a chapter. It was that bad.

Tell me all your thoughts and feels, I need them.

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Hlahla🍎🍏

Oh and btw hlahla is my nickname from my middle name😁