All my Boys

ep 1; JOON

joon and i were best friends and neighbors since forever. he was the one i could go to for any trouble in my life, or insecurities or whatever. even tho he was just a tiny bit older than me, i looked up to him, he was my older brother from another mother and i really loved him.

he was 14, when he came out to me and that helped me to figure out, that i was the same. he was the one, who taught me how to kiss, only for practise, he was the one, who teached me jerking off. he was the one, who got me gay porn. he knew it all and i always could asked any question about life, love and sexuality. since i didnt told my parents. so joon was the most important person in my life.

i thought about sex for some time now and decided i was old enough to start with it. in lack of potential partners, i decided that joon should be my first.

the decision was easy, cause 1. he was my best and oldest friend, 2. he knew me and my body, 3. i trusted him 10000%, 4. he was experienced. he wouldnt hurt me.

so after some sleepless nights i asked him, when he was next to me on my bed and starred into the tv and tried to kill aliens.

he froze, turned to me with a puzzled look. "what?" "i am serious" "....jimin....thats...." i sat closer to him. "hear me out! i am thinking of this for a long time now. i cant find anyone whom i can imagine to do it. and we know each other pretty good and u did it allready and i know...." "hold your horses for a sec" he interrupted me, rubbed his face and forgot the game.

"jimin..."

he sighed deep. "dont u wanna have your first time with someone u love?" "did u have it with someone u loved?" "we are not talking about me here...." i scuffed. "i dont wanna wait anymore. its time" i said it more to me than to him. we looked at each other.

somehow joon tried to find an answer in my eyes for a question, i didnt know. "u are putting me in an awfull position here" "why?!" i was confused. for me it was just simple. i wanted to lose my virginity and i wanted my best friend to take it from me. it wasnt a birthdaygift, it was a.... proposal.

he sighed again. "cause taking your virginity.... be your first man... is a huge responsability. if its gonna be bad, it will effect your future sexlife."

"but.... but i trust u! i know u wont hurt me! i know u will make it really good for me" i was really eager and put out my best weapon - my bambie face. joon groaned loudly. "dont give me that face!" i was really good with this expression. "please joonie....please?!" i leaned in closer.

"jimin.... dont!" he stood up and walked around in my room. i could see his brain working. after a while he stood still. "i would have to teach u everything first" "huh???" what did he mean with that?! "we watched porn! i know where its going in" "its so much more, than just to push my dick into u"

"than why did we watched the wrong porn?!"

joon sighed again. "u need to know what u have to do before we are going to do it" "okay.... what?!" "i will tell u when i know if i do it or not" i let my shoulders hang down. "whaaaaa?!" "jimin, ..... i have a boyfriend, i have to consider him ....." "what?! a boyfriend?! since when? why didnt u tell me?! u always tell me about your ....boys u had" i was pissed.

joon had secrets from me?! joon sat down and took my hands. "i wanted to tell u soon.... its still fresh and i .. dont know if its gonna be a relationship or not" okay, thats plausible. "who is it?!"

"jhope" his lips twitched, when he said the name. oh come on! it was obvious that this was going to be a relationship. as i said, i knew joon really well. "the dancer?! are u shitting me?! ...." first i was surprised, than i laught. i fell on my bed and laught and laught.