All my Boys

ep. 8; something breaks

JIMIN:

i was happy with kook. we had fun. we had sex. we had everything. in my mind it was all perfect.

we layed in bed, it was saturday afternoon, the sun came into my room, the wind blew the curtains, the birds were tuning, we layed lazy on my bed. i played with his shirt, he with my hair. flitters of dust danced around us in the air. it was peaceful, wonderful. i wanted to stay like this forever.

"whats on your mind?" i looked up at him. "what u mean?" "u are brooding" "i am not" "come on chim, your thoughts are practicly screaming" he huffed and sat up, pulled me with him. "so?" i sighed. "its joon.... we really dont talk anymore, we dont hang around anymore.... its lame, i know, but he is my best friend." kook caressed my face. "babe, he has a boyfriend now, so do u, its only normal that u stop hanging around" i shook my head. "nope, we promised each other, not to lose our friendship over a relationship.... u are not the obsessed type of boyfriend who forbids me to hang with my friends anymore and neither is hobi, i think... so why? is joon avoiding me? or am i just paranoid?" i was really concerned, joon and i didnt talked since... weeks... it looks like he always avoided me in school....

kook sighed too, somehow he didnt want me or us to talk about joon. whatever.... "look, i think he is just busy with hope. as u told me, hobi is his first real boyfriend. of course they will spent time as much as possible. like us! he will come around soon enough again, u ll see!" "hm... thank u. u always comfort me" "hey, u are my boyfriend!" i giggled and hit him, what gave him the oppurtunity to threw me on my back and kissed the life out of me. oh i love him.

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KOOK:

joon, joon, always fucking joon! i have enough of it! he was my boyfriend. and yes! i am obsessed with jimin. i really hate it, when he shows affection to anybody or anything else than me. i hate it when he was talking to somebody else, when he has fun with anybody than me. he was mine! and now he was whining after joon...... yeah they are best friends, but he was with me now! i should be more important, than joon.....

the good thing is, that joon avoided jimin. i noticed it. and i was happy about it.

anyway, to my horror, a few months later joon invited jimin for a vacation week, without me or hobi. invited... more so that their parents decided to have the vacation together like always. i wasnt happy with that. i was livid.

"stay here. u can come with me and my family" i begged him. "sorry, but i dont have a word in the decision." he smiled at me and gave me a fucking peck. i jerked away at him. "if u love me, u would come with me" he tilted his head, stood up and backed away.

"what are u saying?!" he whispered. i saw shimmer in his eyes. "dont give me teary eyes! looks like u dont love me at all!" "kook?!..... stop that!" "stop what?!" i got pissed up from the bed and balled my hands. jimin looked like a deer in headlights. huge eyes. "i ... i am going home now. i need to pack. see u in a week." "so u are going?!" i yelled at him. tears came into his eyes again, but he had a very pissed expression. "listen here: u are my boyfriend, no doubt there, but right now i dont like u at all! u are an asshole for no reason! u have a week to calm down and think of an apology to me. we will talk then. bye"

i said some ....idiotic things to him again and he stormed out. FUCK!!!!

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JOON:

i didnt know what happened, but jimin looked tired and sad, when he sat next to me in the car. he drove with my parents and me. he was silent the whole drive, only some short words in the beginning. he looked out the window the most time.