(Tw)
I think sometimes I seek out ways to make myself worse,
New ways to self destruct.
Finding vegan diets and meal plans, different workouts and tea to boost my metabolism.
Following skinny girls on Instagram and ignoring the self care posts on my feed.
Reblogging that glorified "soup" that's only 45 calories
Finding ways to make myself finally be able to feel again
Only knowing how to love myself when I'm skinny I'll self destruct and relapse until my body finally says enough
Until I'm too hungry to continue
Until my friends start to notice and I feel too much guilt for putting them through that worry again.
But that won't stop me
Not till my bones protrude and my skin bruises and my family worries
I'll still fantasize about who I used to be and ways to get myself to where I was before
And part of me knows those thoughts won't go away no matter what I do
YOU ARE READING
A Collection Of My Thoughts.
PoesíaAll poetry is mine. - - A gathering of my deepest thoughts and feelings compiled into one small book of poetry. trigger warning = (tw) - - Stay safe xx Logan
