Leilanis pov
L - kairi?
K - yes leilei?
L - did you mean that comment?
K - what comment?
L - the one saying i looked perfect.
K - uh yeah i meant it. I mean in a friend way cause that's all we will ever be , right?
Kairi mumbled a word or something at the end of his sentence but i didn't hear him. To hear those words come out of his mouth hurt a lot. I knew we never had a chance but i kinda had hope. I guess not.
L - o-ok i'm just going to go to the bathroom real quick i'll be back.
K - okay
kairis pov
leilani told me she was going to the bathroom so i decided to look around her room. I saw the face mask tube still out so i found a random dresser draw to put it in.
" bully journal " huh? what is this? i picked up the book i saw in the drawer and opened it to the first page.
- today all my mind thought about was ways to end this all. the bullying, the fighting, the pain, everything! man i really wish me and kairi were on good terms. I really wish kairi and mattia didn't bully me either then maybe my arms wouldn't have scars on them. i like him a lot even though he's a dick to me. I just wish he didn't bully me. See you tomorrow journal -
woah holy shit, i really did that to her? i'm so fucking stupid omg! wait- what am i doing? this is her personal stuff i need to get out of it.
i put the journal back and decided to go see if leilani was okay as she hadn't came out of the bathroom yet.
leilanis pov
i'm so stupid thinking kairi would like me back. why am i so stupid like what the actual fuck? i'm not good enough for anyone. i literally hate myself so much
my thoughts all consisted of anger and sadness, i was just pouring out my feelings until i heard a small knock on the door?...?
K - leilani?
L - u-uh yes kairi?
K - are you okay?
L - yeah i'm fine
K - no your not i'm coming in.
L - just a second kai-
He busted in the door, he saw the blade and everything. Shit, what am i going to do know.
I proceeded to hide my arms between my thighs, he stood there shocked. I felt tears form in my eyes, i took a quick glance at him to see tears in his eyes aswell.
Kairis pov
Leilani had a blade?! holy shit did i do this. No don't fucking cry kairi your gonna look like a pussy in front of her. ugh to late i'm already crying.
K - hey hey hey don't cry? why are you doing this to yourself leilei?
L - do you really wanna know kai?
K - yes leilani i do.
I held her chin and lifted her head up to make her look at me. My eyes glued to hers.
K - come on leilani you can talk to me.
L - the truth is that i like you, and when you said that all we were ever gonna be is friends i got really hurt and i thought i wasn't good enough. and it all turned into this
K - .......
L - i-im sorry kairi i don't know what i'm do-
I cut her off by kissing her. it was honestly magical. best thing i've ever done.
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