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Chapter Ten

Taehyung's heartbeat fastened in anxiety and he couldn't sit straight in his home. His hands perspired more and more as tried to calm down and sit on his bed, staring at Sira's contact on her phone.

He had a wonderful time with her today. They went out and saw a movie and then rested by the Han River, which is the hot spot for couples. He felt nice, more than just nice because he tried to live the moment until he could.

He didn't want to break apart from her. Not especially after the time they spent together. He didn't even like the feeling he got when he dropped her to her house and she kissed him and asked him to sleep properly.

He hasn't been sleeping properly since days. It was more than evident. Yesternight, his slumber was too sweet but again he was woke up early by Seongi's phone, reminding him that before Monday he has to break up with her.

Maybe, now he was realising how for granted he was taking this relationship. He liked Sira, he only admitted that. But after being in the situation of leaving her, he didn't know what to feel.

He felt sadder than he thought he would've, he felt lonelier than he thought he would've and he felt more broken that he thought he would've.

Taehyung thought that maybe convincing Seongi would work. Because her soften eyes that she would present only when he looked so broken about leaving Sira, didn't go unnoticed by him.

He thought that maybe he had a chance. He had realised his mistakes, wasn't that enough? He already felt bad for other girls whom he had chose to break apart from his brother, Jimin.

Why did he have to get this punishment when after so much time, he was able to move on from her? The one who has ruined his as well as Jimin's life. The one who captured his heart first, but he knew he couldn't give it to her, because everything was so messed up. So messed up, that he ended up doing something he shouldn't have.

Why wouldn't people understand his point of view? Taehyung was not completely wrong. He also went through pain, he also went through heartbreak because of Jimin, though he didn't understand how messed up the situation earlier was.

Whatever it was, Sira had nothing to do with it. But still she managed to make him happier in such a messed up situation. Maybe if it wasn't for her, he still would have been in that same situation, drowning in self-blame, self-pity, or maybe he couldn't have solved the problems between Jimin and him.

What was her fault? Why was she being dragged into this whole matter when she wasn't even a part of it? Taehyung didn't like that.

But he had already lost his chance to apologize Seongi. Or to all those other girls who was involved with Jimin. It was the time for him to go through the punishment.

It was the time for him to through the phase of self-blame and self-pity that he was able to escape with the help of Sira earlier. But now she wouldn't be there, to make him feel happy again. She wouldn't be there to tell him that he was too a human and human made mistakes.

She wouldn't be there. He couldn't let her burn her dreams into ashes just because he was selfish wanted her to be by her side.

Sira was innocent. Her smiling face flashed before his eyes. She looked so beautiful today. Though it was casual outfit, it looked so fine on her.

Sorry, I cannot make it right.

His hands moved on its own as he typed those words that would hurt his throat if were to say this.

Taehyung: I am sorry, Sira.

But we have to break up. This is the end of our relationship.

Remember, that night? I told you didn't have a chance with me. Maybe our relationship didn't stand a chance.

I hope you will understand, because you are kind of special to me and I don't want you to be sad.

Taehyung shook his head as he didn't like the message he was writing at all. If had to break up with her, it has to be clear because he knew she wouldn't easily give up on him.

He deleted the last message and again tried to write the last line.

Taehyung: I hope you will understand that we are not compatible. I don't see  someone in you with whom I can spend my whole life.

Let's break up.

What time we spent together today, was our last time together.

Bye.

He sent the following messages but they were unread. He was sure that Sira was asleep because it was late and she must have been tired.

Taehyung didn't want her to start her morning by reading those messages because he knew how sad and shocked she would be to see those.

She would not first believe her eyes and then she would read it again before calling him to ask if it was a prank. And he didn't know if he would be able to contain himself after listening her on phone if she had that broken voice while speaking.

Being persistent, she would come to his house to take answers from him directly. She would want to listen those words that he messaged from his mouth before ending this relationship.

And he would not be able to say those words to her like that. She didn't deserve it.

So that's why, Taehyung started tapping on his phone.

Are you sure that you want to block Sira?

Yes.               No.

And he clicked on 'Yes'. His heart feeling tightened now. And he didn't want to feel it right now. So he picked up his bag and went to a bar to ease his pain. Because it seemed to be the only way.

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Seongi's phone rang late at night. She was in her studio, a coffee in her hand as she was trying to think of a nice melody. She let her fingers roam on the keys of a piano that she had in front of her.

Her phone rang suddenly late at night which was quiet surprising. It was an unknown number and she didn't recognise it.

She picked her phone up and held it by the side of her ear. "Hello?" She said.

"Ma'am, a friend of yours is very drunk and he seems alone with no company. Please pick him up from XXX bar, on this street or inform someone who can pick him up. He seems to say that he is Kim Taehyung." A male voice said.

Seongi didn't expect this call at this time of the night. Maybe there wasn't even any taxi around at this moment. She had no other choice than to pick him up.

"Okay, I will come. Just please look after him till I reach." Seongi informed.

"Thank you ma'am." The person said and kept hanged the phone.

She couldn't just possibly go to a bar, where her identity could be revealed any moment. She took her phone and called his manager.

"Yang, can you come to the studio? I need your help." Seongi said.