Rebel because yes (English version)

Chapter 26

Wanting to cover all those shits right now ... it was impossible ... I had no strength ... and I was only ... as I had become accustomed to being ... with my loneliness and I- after three hours I returned to the hospital carrying a bag with things for Bianca ... I was in bed lying on my side ... take a ball ... when he felt me ​​come in, he turned to see me and started crying-
- Christian: why did you do such stupidity huh? ... You scared me ... don't cry anymore hey
- Bianca: sorry ... I was sad ... I just don't want to lose you ...
- Christian: what are you talking about?
- Bianca: you're going to go with another one better than me ... and I ...- he paused and turned his gaze to the other side- I've fallen in love with you-
- Christian: what? that can't be ... you know we can't ... shit it was a mistake to continue living with you- I got on my nerves ... I didn't know where to go ... or what to think-
- Bianca: I know ... but I couldn't help it ...
We decided to change the subject because Charly and four other colleagues entered. - The next day he was discharged ... and we returned to his apartment ... I prepared some sandwiches and ate together watching TV in the living room- we did not touch on the theme of love ... or what happened to her or Katia ... nothing - I just got up and went to the room ... I began to prepare my bags to go ... I had not told him that I was waiting for a floor to be confirmed ... I did not know how I would react and really I couldn't do much ... if Charly found out that there were feelings in between she wasn't going to be happy ... after twenty minutes she appears behind the door ... enters silently like a ghost and her sad face-
-Bianca: don't do that please ... forget what I told you ... I can handle my feelings-
Shit a Deja vu already told me that once and I got covered in shit ... no ... Not again

-Christian: nobody can with their feelings ... can't be controlled ... unless you want to fool yourself and destroy your life for an idiot like me who does not feel or feel the same as you- I said dryly and looking at her the face ... I could hear his heart break- you will thank me later-
-Bianca: why are you that insensitive eh? - If I told you ...- hey I'm talking to you answer ... why are you like that? - He grabbed my arm and I stopped dead to look her in the eye-
-Christian: as well? What do you want, to lie to you? excuse me but I can't be more than this ... I am sincere and if I walk away it is to take care of you ... I am not insensitive ... I just do not fall in love with anyone do you understand me? Nobody's ... we were fine like that, why do you have to mix everything?! - and I left the room to not argue anymore ... but since she didn't think the same thing was behind me-
-Bianca: we have been living together for more than a year ... that we take, that we sleep together, do things around the house and everything together ... because I was not going to get confused ??? !!! And youuuu ... you're a damn son of a bitch you let this happen-
-Christian: excuse me???? Is it my fault that you confuse things? Fuck you Bianca * I will be a son of a bitch then because I took advantage of you ... we are coworkers to start ... you know ... it's forbidden ...
-Bianca: that's a lie! ... Charly has long known about this, so long living together, do you think it is believed that we only share the apartment?
-Christian: have you talked about us with him? But are you crazy or what? - It makes sense ... on many occasions he has told me about her as a fragile girl behind that aspect of an independent slut, even after what happened with Katia she made me understand how she was jealous and left ... no He reproached me nothing or ... oh shit!! - Do you know what we are going to do? ...- I said lowering my voice noticeably and

softening the words- you and I only shared the apartment and the bed from time to time... But nothing more ... I'm not a guy who should fall in love with and you know it ... someone will come to love you ... I'm sure of that - I said stroking his chin - you're going to get over this and you're going to be fine, okay? I thank you for the time you helped me and we shared everything, I will be there for you when you need me ... you know it ... but it was time for everyone to be as before ... without confusion or anything-