Rebel because yes (English version)

Chapter 30

I'm sure I fell asleep for a long time, when I woke up there was a doctor with the ugliest glasses I saw in my fucking life, Dr. Monica, Ezekiel and two nurses- They talked to each other until they realized that I had woken up and they gave me all their attention-
-Dra. Monica: Hi little, how are you feeling?
-Christian: I think well * with hunger- was the truth, I did not remember when it was the last time I had tried bite-
-Ezekiel: that's good news, I already ask you to bring something-
They had already untied me, they made me sit and they brought me a high table of those to eat with casters- they gave me a pork chop with some potatoes and some vegetables with a freshly squeezed orange juice- I think I devoured everything in a minute - -They asked me things about my life, how I felt-
Everything seemed to be going well, but a few days later I plunged into a hell I didn't know how to get out-
I was confused- I didn't know if I was having a nightmare or if there were really people without faces that grabbed me from everywhere * my flesh hurt * I screamed * I tried to free myself from them, but my grip was stronger * I was very cold * I felt that tore my clothes * laughed out loud in a devilish way * begged to please let go * felt like a hot liquid that was burning my chest and I cried and screamed because the pain was real
-Ezekiel: Christian stop !! Please kid for!! Listen to me!! Open your eyes come on!! You are going to hurt yourself!
When I return to reality I was lying on the floor in a corner of the room and Ezekiel with the nurses in front of me-
-Christian: DON'T TOUCH ME!! - I yelled -I want to go ... I need air ... please I want to breathe and they squeeze me- I made the gesture that someone was squeezing my neck-

They sit me in a wheelchair, they ask me to calm down so I can go outside. They take me to a gallery, it was already very cold, it was a winter afternoon - the sky was completely dark - no light as in my interior - I breathed all the air I could store in my lungs - and when I realized that I didn't I had how to escape from there, I started crying until I ran out of tears-
Dr. Monica and Ezekiel took me to a small room with a round table and dark wooden chairs to talk.

-Dra. Monica: Are you calmer, my child? -She is loving but I am sharp and with my raspy voice I told her not to tell me child, that I did not like and that I was no longer-
I was disgusted that they told me that- they asked me about the dream I had and things, many things and to reward me for cooperating they took me to see the facilities of the place- At the exit of the room where we were there was a much larger room, with armchairs and low tables, there was a library, a large TV that was turned off at the moment, a stereo, on one side and separated by transparent pvc panels, a gym, quite complete - when passing the great room there was a door that led to a huge dining room, like those of the American schools, with women cooking in large pots and kitchens - after that there were the hallways that led to the rooms, there was the pavilion for girls on the left and the one for boys on the right-
During the days I was calm, entertaining myself with some activity, but at night, the damn nights were a fucking nightmare alive for me- I was in a room just 2x2, it was also white and had the walls padded to the ceiling, the bed I was short and comfortable, but I was too tormented, my whole body ached, I felt my limbs ripped out, I cried screaming because those figures chased me and laughed at me making fun of my stupid state- A voice in my head repeated what I already knew, that it was bullshit, a pimp that I killed Bianca for being a damn selfish man for not opening my heart and things that made me angry ... but at the same time it scared me- I was feverish, I knew I was suffering that for abstinence-