Rebel because yes (English version)

Chapter 33

After a week we admitted what was happening to us and finally we became engaged - at the first time I told him it was Thomas, at another time I would have given a shit ... but I really wanted things to be fine, especially with my family

-Christian: hey Tom can we talk? - He looked at me and nodded- I think I owe you a few apologies after all our fights, my insults and ... he interrupted me-
-Thomas: Chris, you know that all that doesn't matter anymore, I just want you to be well ... * in which family there are no fights between brothers?
-Christian: I know that ... but there's something else, shit I don't know how to say-
-Thomas: what are you going out with Vanesa? * Just say it silly- I was surprised- she is yours from the first day they met, it took you a little longer to decide but she always loved you ... I always knew it- he came down I always talked about you and you know that ... I got sick, I was dying of jealousy, that's why I provoked you, although I knew it was in vain because neither she was going to love me as you, nor was I ever going to beat you. When the home engine happened at the beginning I felt proud because at last I had hurt you and not the other way around ... but then I swear I regretted, seeing mom suffering suffered my soul broke, and everything that came later ... Christian. .. you didn't deserve everything you went through, I'm really sorry- he started crying like a child- I'm your older brother and I'm supposed to protect you, advise you and accompany you-
-Christian: Enough, we were two idiots ... but I will not deny that I wanted to kill you! - We laughed- and I would not have let you take care of me or your pussy ... you know I preferred to always manage alone-
-Thomas: yes ... you were always a tough guy ... what I never imagined is that you built that personality based on hate and resentment * I would not have known what to do Christian ... you know how silly I was all my life ... always quiet and calm ... able to end up pissing me for life- I laughed- but you didn't ... Always hiding your weakness and showing yourself strong, invincible ... you never cuddled for anything ... and when you started to train physically ? ... The grandfather made those jokes that you were preparing to kill and I was already hospitalized by your blows- we both started laughing-

-Christian: well enough is enough, you admire me and you envy me because I was the "chulito" all my life ... acknowledge it and already- he laughed- then what we were going to ... do not you fuck me to go out with Vanesa then? -
-Thomas: Of course not ... I'm glad you finally feel silly head ... but you must take care of it Christian because where you play the idiot you know that you lose it, not for me ... I must clarify that nothing ever happened between us and also You know I'm dating someone ... but there are many hovering around her ... also that they would give their lives for her-
-Christian: how is that? Who are they? - Shit takes me!! - Do I know them?
-Thomas: I know ... you will not feel insecure right? ... You have everything she wants so do not worry ... just make her happy-

Once the subject was clarified, we communicated it to the rest of the family, they were all happy and wished us luck ... if as if we were going to play a football game I don't know ...
I admit that I never thought it would feel so good to be a boyfriend ... she was the sweetest woman I saw in my life ... and I went from being the insensitive type to the most in love in the world - I was crazy ... and the others laughed at me - it was another me ... an unknown version of the rebellious and carefree Christian, took care more of my family, spent time with my father, accompanied my mother in many things, for example when shopping for the home ... he took her to the supermarket, loaded the car ... it was very fun-

Dr. Monica with whom I continued to have sessions even after almost a year after I left the institute was happy for my evolution, every now and then I went to the institute to visit Ezekiel, Ester, one of the boys with whom we could share a late in the park drinking mate, the hot drink that Argentines drink so 40 degrees of heat ... I had gotten used to it. Sometimes I saw Micaela, I had a relapse, they told me that she cried when I left ... she left and that did not help in the evolution, when I could talk to her I asked her to put will ... that if what I wanted was To get out of there was being fine ... so I expected to see her in a cafeteria to share something. He became sad when I told him that I had become a boyfriend, that I was really in love ... he promised to go ahead and visit me-
I had lost my position at the distributor, a guy in his 20s in my place ... at 27 I had no job so it was time to look for one. For my luck, they accepted me in a very fast one ... I was the assistant of a well-known accountant in the area, I had the economy of many important companies in the city and the surrounding area, that was going to be an experience because I set out to sign up in a university career, Business Administration-

Everything was going very well, Vanesa and I were more and more united, she stayed at home and sometimes I went to hers, as there were no fluttering children or many people there, I could go to concentrate to study for my exams. Betty spent hours beside me serving me coffee, we drank mate, I reviewed my lessons with her, she was my second mother. Claire already had her little girl, Maia, she was the most beautiful thing I saw in my life ... a baby with pink cheeks, the smallest and red mouth ever seen ... the clear skin and her voice was like that of the cartoons ... beautiful, tender and my first niece ... was delighted with her ... rather silly.
My mind was busy, my heart and my hours ... I didn't have to think about anything other than making the people around me happy ... weird? totally, but for me it was the most normal ... I could not conceive my life without that direction ...
The nights were pure passion, Vanesa and I practically lived together ... I had the room for me just because my aunt and cousin had moved to an apartment, so Thomas went to the room they occupied.
Our nights of love, parties ... together, of course, it was the most fun with her because we were doing antics and we had a great time without consuming crap ... seeing her just drunk filled me with tenderness ... and apparently we were very funny because everyone laughed with us. Especially when I arrived carrying it on my shoulders, or we were asleep on the couch because our feet hurt so much dancing and we could not climb the stairs. And the nights of passion was to discover something new, for example that he put it when he bit under his ear, or squeezed his crotch while kissing her ... the last thing ... he likes to look in the mirror while he grabs her from behind, his perverted face drives me crazy, the way he comes when we are with his legs tangled up, in poses out of the ordinary ... We were one, the whole world could fall and we were connected in body and soul ... it didn't exist Nothing or anyone else. Waking up hugging each other with the confidence that there were no morning smells, no bad aspects or never a bad mood. Many mornings one of the two was lost in the southern area of ​​the other to say good morning, it was undoubtedly the best way to start the day...