Death, but no Description (AlastorXReader)

Chapter 23

(Y/N's POV)

As I woke up from that awful slumber, after all those dreadful thoughts. I looked around the room, and soon, right next to myself. Alastor was sound asleep next to me, his face as gentle as usual when he is asleep. I sighed. I took a look at the time. 11:26am. The clock continued to tick, and nothing could stop it. I threw my legs over the bed, dangling them. Today is the extermination... its either I die, or I will be trapped with Alastor for eternity. Love is a strong feeling... It will soon engulf me in thoughts of Alastor, and only Alastor... But, if I manage to escape him today, and have my life taken from me... I will never be swallowed whole by the emotion Love... I can escape this world that is filled with grieve, rage, and sorrow. I can leave Alastor forever. I let my feet touch the floor. I threw the sheets off my distasteful body. I took a glance at my hands, my feet, my legs. My hands balled up into fists as I stood up fast, causing my world to become a dizzy mess. I took a deep breath as I caught my balance, and stormed off to the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror. my features continued to make my stomach twist with disgust. My face was grey, darker than Alastor's skin. My eyes, were purple and blood shot. My teeth were yellow and sharp. My hair was a mess, (H/C), which didn't match my skin, or my eyes... I dug my claws into the bathroom counter. I gnashed my teeth. Why? I look hideous... What the fuck does Alastor see in me? Why would he love something so... loathsome?? 

Soon, the bed creaked. I shot my head to face towards the door, and rushed to the doorway. I forgot to close the bathroom door. As I had the door nearly closed, a red hand grabbed the door. Alastor had the door in hand. He dug his nails into the door, as we began to play tug-of-war with the door. I was pulling the door with as much strength that I could bare. My strength proved to be nothing in comparison to Alastor. My feet were dragging against the bathroom floor, the door opening more and more, until his face was clear. I let go of the door knob, and scrambled to the opposite side of the room. Alastor popped his head into the room, and looked directly at me. He slowly crept into the bathroom, and walked towards me. I was curled up in a ball on the other side of the room at this point.

"Dear?" His voice slowly crept up on me.

I looked up at him, shaking aggressively. I don't know why I am so scared of him. I took a moment to think about it before I realized it. He knows my plans, and He knew that I knew that he was going to stop me... or at least, try. My nerves began to calm, enough to face him.

"Yes?" I asked in return.

He crouched down in front of me, and immediately wrapping his arms around me.  I froze with shock. 

"I know what you are thinking... But... I will not allow you to die, my Love." Alastor whispered gently. 

I gnashed my teeth, and shoved Alastor off of me. 

"You can't decide my fate." I growled.

Alastor looked baffled, while he was frozen in his place. He took a huge breath in before his reply.

"I can if it means keeping you alive... I know I'm never going to change the world around us. I know we are stranded in hell... but after this, there is nothing but pure darkness. There is nothing more, no reincarnation or anything... I cant let you fall into the darkness... Never!" Alastor cited.

I gnashed my teeth.

"I don't care if its just darkness and nothing else! If I stay here, I am going to be sucked into loving you... Forever, I will be trapped in a heart full of love and care. Trapped in a head filled with thoughts of just you. I don't know if I will like that..." I spoke back.

Alastor smirked. I looked at him curiously with a hint of terror. He grabbed onto both of my shoulders with his hands, and began to chuckle. 

"That is the worst thing? Being with me scares you? I will do anything, to make you feel amazing... Anything! We can live as if this is not hell. I will love you. I will protect you. I will never hurt you, because you are my everything." Alastor mentioned.