The Pretender: a Sara Lance / Batwoman fanfiction

Pt. 12 / Nyx / Bleed the freak

"Nyx, I need to know. Is Kate Kane the one?"

Lucifer has been repeating the same question over and over again while I was stretched on my bed, resting. Healing. I didn't feel pain anymore, I felt weakness and heavy weight of my human body.

- "Can you give me just one minute of peace?"
"I can't. Nyx, why didn't you tell me?"
- "There's nothing to tell..."
"You bleed. The real, human blood."
- "Accident..."
"No. Love, Nyx."

Bitch, please... I turned my head away from him. But Lucifer laughed.
"Awww Nyxie, I've been waiting for this day to come." why the fuck is he cheering?

- "Sorry to disappoint you..."
"Nyx, I fell in love, too. Some time ago, when I was in Los Angeles. And I was in denial, like you are right now."
- "WHAT??? You???"
"Yes."
- "And you're telling me just now???"
"So? Better late than never. Nyx, first step is to admit it."

If only I could roll my eyes more...
- "Fuck you."
"You know, being in love isn't a curse or a punishment although it may seem like that when it hits you first. I panicked when I realized."
- "Who did you fall for?"
"Chloe."
- "No shit!! The detective?"

"Yes well... It started as strange feelings, I was cheerful in her presence and missed her when gone. Then I was being overprotective and maybe a little too clingy. And then I took a bullet for her and... got hurt. Like a real human. She made me vulnerable. Now tell me, Nyx, have you came across any of what I've said now?"

No way I'm going to admit...

"Hmm, silence, I take that as yes."
- "No!"
"Aaaaah, don't be silly. Come on, what are you afraid of?"
- "I'm not."
"How many breaths have you taken since you made love to her?"

...shit.

- "Ugh...."
"I took 21.075.678 breaths since I met Chloe."

Well, there's probably no use in denying it.
- "Okay. I... ummm... feel something for Kate Kane."

"What emotions do you feel?"
- "Longing. Pain. Cold. Warmth. Lust. Sadness. Fear... I feel my own heartbeat and I'm aware of the breaths I take. Sometimes I feel my insides clenched in an iron fist, squeezing me every time a simple thought of her crosses my mind. Which is almost always."

Lucifer looked... happy. Genuinely grinning.

"Nyx, finally!"
- "Are you kidding me? It sucks! I feel like I'm sick, my body still hurts, it's physical pain. I have trouble breathing, have panic attacks... Just give me the cure and let me go back to my old self. You can erase my memory, can't you!"
"I could but..."

- "Lucifer... don't make me angry..."
"Wanna know what's funny?"
- "Nothing is funny Lucifer!"
"You, the toughest one, the emotionless warrior, the most feared Nephilim... I can't." he burst out laughing and couldn't stop.

Until I made him stop. With my fist landing on his jaw.

"Ok, I deserved that but... listen... the Fallen one has fallen head over heels in love."
- "Fuck you." I failed to see humor in Lucifer's words.

I'd rather leave and lock myself alone again but my body was still a bit weak.

"So are you going to talk to her?"
- "What???"
"Yeah, you should. I ship you two. She's badass, you'd make a cute couple. Cute but badass."
- "You really should stop drinking, Lucifer."

"I bet you're not so serious when you're with her."
He was right on that one... But I didn't reply and that was the cue for him that our conversation was over.

However...
- "Do you really think I should talk to her?"
"Of course! Tell her everything. What's the worse that can happen? Look, if it goes wrong I can always make her forget and erase her mind."
- "Why don't you just erase both of our minds?"
"Because this is too amusing and I'm enjoying you becoming softie, Nyx."