I'm Helpless {SLOW UPDATES}

Ryuu

Ryuu:

Do you really see me as a friend

Yukari:
Yes
Do you see ME as your friend?

Why wouldn't I
Your the only friend I have, but you saying that you have no friends makes me think that you don't actually mean that I'm your true friend

But you are

Then why do you keep saying you have no friends?!

I don't know

How do you not know

I just don't!

Then are you just saying that for fun

Are you just saying that because your so used to attention

You want me to cry for you just like all those other idiots did
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The moment I sent that, the school bell rang to go home.

I didn't expect her to answer back but I did expect her to get angry and I know that she's angry.
Why wouldn't she be?
I would be angry too if I heard someone say that to me.
I don't even know why I brought that up or why I even said that
I kind of regret it tho
I really regret it but I can't take it back.
Unless I see her but I doubt she wants to see me
She's gonna end up avoiding me because I said that.
Probably even block me.
But what I said was how I thought and saying what's really on your mind might not be a good thing because what you think can sometimes be hurtful and it's best not to say it
But I said it anyway and ended up hurting her

Why did I hurt her?

Why?

I walk out of the classroom but I'm the last one to get out.
Everyone rushed out as if it was a competition to get out first.
"Have a great day Ryuu" my teacher said as I let the room.
"You too. Bye" My voice cracked as I said goodbye. But he didn't care
"Bye." He responded.
I left the room filled with worry. I don't exactly know why I was worried yet I did. I guess I wasn't so sure if I should be worrying about that or not
But it seemed rude to not worry if someone's okay or not.

I walk alone out of school as usual but I can't stop worrying about what she might say to me or what she might do

"RYUU!!" I hear Yukari shout and run towards me.
"I-I can eplai-" she pushes me back before I could finish my sentence.

"What the fuck do you mean by 'you want me to cry for you like all the other idiot'?"
"I- I'm sorry! I- ugh I can't explain it"
"Why don't you know" she mocked.
It made me realize how I felt and I guess I started to understand why she didn't know why she said she has no friends
We can't explain it but why is that?
I'm afraid to answer her because I feel like I'ma say something that will get her more mad
"I- I'm sorry I said that I didn't mean it I'm sorry" my voice starts to crack at the middle of my sentence making it sound like as if I was gonna cry.
"Arrrr!! Why?!! Why c-, whaaaa!!!!!" She shouts she covers her eyes with her hands and looking up at the sky.
'WTF'? I thought
"Uhh........." Im surprised that she shouted but I don't know why. What did I say
wrong?
"Are- are you okay?" I blush as I ask her but it's not what you think!
I blush at embarrassment because there
are a bunch of people staring at us.
Just to make things worse, they all start to walk towards us with an angry face.
"I- I'm fine" she answers
"Okay....." She still looks worried and everyone that was staring at us still starts
to walk towards us.
"Hey what'd you do to her?!" A boy says as he pushes me away.
"Whu- I - I didn't do anything to her , I just....um..." I couldn't think of an answer
Well,...at least not a good one