"It's just acting...Or is it?"

Chapter 1

He grabbed me by the wrist and pushed me flush against the wall. My heart was beating a mile a minute. The burn from my cheeks made me hold my breath. He looked into my eyes and smirked.

"Rye what are you doing.." before I could finish my sentence his lips were on mine. I didn't move at first shocked. I quickly realized what was happening then I closed my eyes

Only to find that I wasn't kissing Ryan I was laying in my bed shocked by what I just had a dream about.

"Ugh. " I groan rolling to lay on my back. My gaze is on the ceiling and I try to rub the sleep from my eyes. What is up with all these weird dreams lately. I reach over and check my phone. 6am. Ugh. I get up and put my jeans on. There's no point in trying to go back to sleep after a dream like that.

As I reach the bottom of the stairs I hear movement in the kitchen. I freeze. Who would be up at this time. I peak my head around the corner and see a shirtless Ryan. Gosh why is he so fit.

"Omg Andy get it together" I whisper. I jerk my head back so he wouldn't see me but he did.

"Hey fovvs? Is that you?" He says with his low morning voice. My knees feel weak.

How am I supposed to act after that dream. Am I supposed to tell him about it.

"Hey. Yeah I-I couldn't sleep." I stutter. Why am I stuttering.

"Oh. Well you want me to make you some breakfast mate?" He smiled. And it made me smile.

"Yes. Please." I say walking and sitting at the island. I pull my phone out and scroll through Instagram.

"How did you sleep? Have any dreams." He smirked. Why is he smirking what does he know.

"I slept ok I guess...I had some weird dreams actually." Oh gosh why did I say that now I have to explain.

"What was it about?"he asks

"You.." I felt my heart skip a beat. What's wrong with me.

"Oh now you have to tell me." He raised his eyebrows and placed pancakes in front of me.

"Uh well it was really weird and I don't know why I had this dream but."

"Oh come on fovvlar! Just tell me!" He begged.

"So we were backstage of a show. And then you pushed me against a wall and Um kissed me. Then I woke up. " I felt my cheeks start to burn. I tried to hide it by taking a big bite of my pancakes

"That's it? I thought it would have been something crazy." This made me slightly disappointed. I don't know what I expected him to say but it wasn't that.

"Yeah...well I thought it was weird." I mumbled.

"Why we kiss all the time for the fans. And we're the best ship remember." He laughed "It's not weird when we're just acting right?"

Those words hit me wrong. Just acting. Where we rye or were we just hiding what we really felt. Wait what am I thinking.

"Yeah right just acting." I got up and put my plate in the sink.

"Hey are you ok ? You seem upset now?" His face concerned.

"Yeah I'm fine. Thanks for breakfast. I'll be In my room if you need anything." I didn't let him reply I practically ran upstairs. I felt like I could cry then realized I already was. Why am I crying. Was it because of that conversation. He's my best friend why would I be upset. Yeah best friends that kiss and do couple things

Oh gosh. Do I have feelings for him...

A/n
I'm editing this story and oof this begging is terrible haha. It gets better around chapter 12 or 14 idk but if you read this entire story I'm proud Bc oof. But I can say my writing kind of matured as I went on lol.