The Seventh Grade Journal

11/24/14,

Mary-Anne
hi ill be on more than Annie, since she is sick and has a virus!
but I hope you get okay annie :D
but i'd like to call this chapter, other than 11/24/14, Problems.
okay, so most of you probably got called "ugly" by a boy.
it's happen like 3-4 times to me.
but im not emotional, so i dont take it seriously or anything
but what i'd like to say is that i've noticed, being me, that boys judge girls more than girls judge boys. I've only been judged by a girl once, in fourth grade, but other than that boys are some harsh critics.
"she's so ugly!"
"her nose is big, but her head is small, but she has a nice body."
"she'd be pretty if she lost some weight."
"her feet are so big!"
"i'd never go out with her! shes ugly/fat!"
these are all real things that boys have said. Not only do they say negative things, but they can also say "positive" things, which are acceptable in society, or a norm.
"she's so skinny!"
"wow. she's hot."
"real women have curves."
no real women breathe ok
"she has an amazing body."
honestly, getting called "skinny" is not a compliment or an insult. I don't know if that makes sense, but for someone who's struggling with an eating disorder, being called "skinny/fat" may make them feel terrible about themselves. Being in middle school, and being around boys who are dating the popular girls who are pretty, I can assure you that someone will always judge you on something. I'm not a girly-girl and I have a deep voice, and people judge me on that. But who cares! i can do what I want, and I can dress however I want. You do what you want. Getting back on track, boys are judgmental, atleast in my school. They throw a girl's self-esteem in the garbage like it's trash. You should never tell a girl or boy that they're ugly, fat, skinny, pretty, hot. Tell them that they're handsome/beautiful. And stop with the misogynist remarks!
"you throw like a girl!"
"dont be such a girl!"
THANK YOU I KNOW GUESS WHAT I AM A GIRL.
If it kills a guy to tell him that he plays like a girl,then what are we teaching him about girls?
When I was younger, i was taught that men were superior to women. That men were the breadwinners, women were meant to stay in the kitchen and take care of children. As I have grown up, my views turned all the way around. I hate to turn on the TV because I know there's some type of sexism going on. From advertisements, to TV shows, to even the news! We live in a world where being a girl is worst than hunger issues in the world. Which brings me to another point:
STOP WITH THE EBOLA JOKES!
they aren't funny. Knowing people in West Africa (I believe, tell me if I'm wrong) are dying every day from Ebola, why would you do it? Oh right, you're ignorant. Forgot. You'll make AIDS jokes, HIV jokes, STD jokes, Ebola jokes, but once you make a cancer joke, everyone stares at you like an evil maniac.
why don't we stop with all the jokes about diseases/syndromes? Why would you even joke about those things? do you think it's cool? does it make you funny? Because to me, you're just a careless, ignorant jerk.
Another thing- pro-ana, anorexia nervosa, bullimia, other eating disorders, and media.
I don't get why people are making Pro-Ana, thinsporation posts? I know, the pressure to be perfect, but really? Anorexia Nervosa is a disorder, and you shouldn't want to have it. Yes, it makes you "skinny" but it's very unhealthy. It causes people to have issues with their future. I was reading about a women who was infertile because of her eating disorder. She also experienced fatigue, dizziness, and had anxiety. now, I know I can't say anything because I've never had a eating disorder, so I can't judge. However, I know that one story is enough for me not to think about eating disorder.
So guys, please, please don't starve yourself. You lose weight by eating healthy! Not starving yourself. You have friends, and family, and me. I like to listen, learn, and give feedback. So, if you feel alone, you can pour all of your emotions to me.
i'm not an emotional person, but I love to give advice and feedback.
Another thing- I know we all get depressed and our confidence goes down and we just feel like a worthless human being, and and a waste of space, but really? You do what you want. If you want to cry, then cry! I honestly disagree with the "fake smile" because you should be able to feel however you want, and no one can tell you otherwise. If you feel like self-harming, instead of cutting, write down your feelings. Think about who loves you, what you have in store for you, what youre like! write down good traits about yourself. I know it's hard, but it's a challenge that you'll overcome. Start by naming one trait. Then two. Three. Four. Five traits. You'll feel better:)
I'm sorry that this was such a long chapter I made up for missed time :D
but seriously! tell me anything! i love hearing your feedback and comments!
i feel very inspirational lol
-Mary-Anne who is feeling generous