Flick of the Wrist ↠Maylor↞✔

I5I - Broken

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Sensitivity Warning: Suicidal thoughts-
Not romanticizing, nor' pity shaming this issue.
Stay safe, I love you all.

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"Are you sure you're alright?" Brian had asked for what felt like the hundredth time as we walk up these steps of class campus, just resembling yesterday but the conversation fairly different as much as I want to pass off the Freddie thing as just a minor argument- I can't forget about it. I don't think we've ever been so irritated with each other before, if at all.

I have my thumbs tapping in my pockets as we stop in front of my class building and he turns to me. Brian had been trying to talk to me and keep up a good conversation as we have in the coffee shop, learning more about each other but on the walk, all I could process out was one-worded responses, I can't think anything through. Brian is a nice guy, but I don't know if he's worth losing my best friend over.

Maybe it's intimidating having to look up at him as he looms over me, but nothing feels out of place. I feel comfortable...

"I'm alright, I swear!" I blink a few times and curve the corners of my lips up into a fake smile, one that I hope it isn't too obvious. Brian doesn't say or indicate anything, though, he just stares at me for a few moments and I can feel myself cramping and my ears heat. I glance down as he finally says something, "Do you want to hang out later? Like after your class sometime?"

"Again?" I suddenly ask, it coming across ruder than it did in my head, he raises a suspecting eyebrow and I quickly retract, "N-no, I mean... you want to hang out again?"

Brian giggles as our eyes meet once again. "I know what you mean, and uh- yeah. If you don't mind- As cheesy as it sounds, I like talking to you." He whispers as if he doesn't want to tell me.

I can't keep back a grin and I jokingly roll my eyes, as Brian seems to get all nervous suddenly, that how he's put into my shoes. "Nice of you," I scramble to find new words to seem like I'm 'cool' but I still end speaking softer, "I like talking to you too..."

I pause, biting my lip in thought. I did have the intention of already saying yes to his offer, but Cory usually always expects me after class. He'd probably kill me to find out I ditched him for another guy, then he'd probably kill Brian.

Cory always wants me back home whenever the time is available. He finds that he's some sense of 'security' for me, or... at least that's his excuse. Sometimes I wonder how it was easy to make an excuse to not come home during a time between classes, (which is now, or was mine and Freddie's coffee break), just my excuse being that our flat is too far to go back and forth. Fuck, I shouldn't even be considering it. Boyfriend before a guy who I literally just met.

I sigh as I anxiously tap my foot against the pavement, "I'm sorry, I can't tonight- I have to meet up with my boyfriend."

Brian keeps a kind smile on, but I can easily see it fall slightly as he forgives me for my terrible, biased-sounding excuse. He takes a deep breath in and talks again, "How about instead of coffee tomorrow we can go to this park I like?"

I guess if I have no plans with Freddie...

"What park?" I curiously ask, tilting my head slightly shivering as chills of the wind gracing over the unsleeved parts of my body. I would adore to just stand here all day and just not go to class and talk to Brian more, but I think it many ways that would be doing the wrong thing, as much as I think he's interesting and the fact that I want to know more.