Hurt

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~back to Midoriya POV~

It was a week later, and it had not been getting any easier on me. Though not everyone knew about what had happened, they had noticed something was off.

The only people that knew about everything that happened with me and Bakagou were Mina, Ochaco, Kirishima, Kaminari, Sero, and Jirou. Shinsou of course knew some of the details but only because Denki had told him. Other than that, they had promised to not say a word to anyone.

Though I wasn't falling behind in the other subjects, it wasn't going well with the hero training. Most days I'd be really out of it, not wanting to fight at all, and the days I would, I would always lose, sometimes on purpose just to end the fight.

As soon as the school day was over, I would always hurry back to my dorm, locking the door and blasting music so as to noone would hear me or bother me.

The girls came by often, just to check up. They'd bring me some snacks or stuffed, or all might merch. Not even that would cheer me up. They'd come in all smiles, talking a lot, trying to get me interested in something. Once they'd see how out of it I was though, Jirou would push the rest of them out of the room, giving me some privacy.

I don't know why this hurts me so much. I'm used to it. He's always ignored me before all this happened. Though after the incident, he stopped yelling at me, and making fun of me. He pretends that I'm not there at all, always just looking through me with an sad, empty look in his eyes.

That hurts more though. Before he'd at least acknowledge me, even if it was through threats, but now, I'm nothing. Not even there.

Bakagou has seemed more focused though, earning the highest marks, and getting most of the highest marks in training. Out of all the fight matches, he's won 99%, one of them being a tie with Todoroki.

My mind wanders to him. Todoroki Shouto. One of my best friends in U.A., and a possible candidate to date or be with.

I sit up. That might be an idea! I can use Todoroki to make Kachan jealous!!! I grimace at how that sounded. I can't just use my best friend.

But he did tell me that he would do absolutely anything for me. Besides, he is a good guy. Smart, kind, and,...I have to admit he is pretty good looking. If I didn't know Katsuki, in all honesty, I probably would've went for Shouto.

I blush as I realize that's exactly what would've happened. Maybe I do need to distract myself and finding a different lover might just be it.

                                                                                  ~Bakagou POV~

I've tried so hard to keep myself busy, just not to think about him, at least in school. I listen to as much of the lesson as I can, trying to pay attention, but the green floof sits behind me, and I can constantly feel the daggers he's shooting with his eyes, along with Ochaco and Mina. The guys too. Though they respect my decision, they don't agree with it. Jirou just doesn't care, though she feels sorry for both of us.

I sigh, crossing my arms on the desk, propping my chin up with my forearm. I stare out the window, watching the clouds float by.

As soon as class was over, I rushed out, not wanting to deal with anybody's bullshit. I noticed someone following behind me and I picked up the pace.

They picked up the pace too, and as soon as I turned the corner, I pressed against the wall, waiting for them to come. As soon as I heard them turning, I grabbed their arm and pinned them face first against a wall.

"Owww,. Bakubro, it's just me. Let go you're hurting me." Realizing it's just Kirishima, I released him, stepping back. "What the hell man?"

I turned away from him "sorry. I'm just on edge. Why were you following me?"

He gives me a sad smile "we're worried Bakagou. You haven't been yourself since you cut it off with Deku." I winced at that.

"I'm fine. Really. I'm just distracted is all." He sighed "Dude, you can't keep doing this to yourself. There's so many of us you can talk to!" He put his hand on my arm "talk to me."

I faced him, hurt in my eyes, my voice cracking "what is there to say? I just declined the person I've liked for so wrong. He probably hates me now. It's all my fault."

He looked at me surprised (/Bakagou showing emotion??? Heh?!??/) He watched me for a few seconds, and then finally, with a soft smile, spoke up "I'm betting my favourite pair of crocks that he doesn't hate you. He may be upset, but he doesn't hate you. Trust me."

I nod, looking at the floor "I should probably go talk to him then." He gives me an encouraging smile and thumbs up "That's it man!! You can do it!!" I smirk at him and he looks down at the ground. Wait did he just blush a bit? I decide to ignore it.

I turn to start going to look for Deku, when he grabs my hand "Katsuki wait!!" I turn to look at him, obviously confused. He hesitated, then pulled me into a hug, whispering good luck, but pulled me a little too hard and we ended up toppling over.

I managed to stop myself before completely crushing him. I landed on my, him in between them, and me sitting on his torso.

At first he just looked at me in horror, but then turned a bright red, covering his face with a giggle. I rolled my eyes at him, getting up and pulling him up as well. "You good?" "Yeah, I'm fine" he chuckled.

I nodded and turned, freezing as soon as I saw him. Kirishima must have noticed the horror on my face, because he turned to see what I was staring at, then freezing too.

There stood Deku, staring at us in shock, hurt playing over his face as tears streamed down. His hands flew to his mouth as he turned and ran from the scene.

"Deku Wait!!!" I called after him. I bolted after him, trying to keep up, leaving Kirishima behind.

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