A song for you

I'm sorry

After the recording session Louis stood up and went to his room. All he wanted was some sleep.

The truth is all the band members were tired. They were all so busy all the time they never got sleep.

Louis sighed. When he had first wanted to become a singer he thought it would be the best. He would get anything he ever wanted.

It seems the one thing he truly wanted now though he couldn't have.

He didn't even know what it was.

Zayn watched Louis leave. He hadn't ment to be mean. He was tired. And confused. He just felt strange around Louis now. Everything was changing.

"What's going on? You okay?" Liam sat down next to him. "Hmm. Oh yeah. I...was I really mean to Lou? I didn't mean to be."

"No. I think he got that you were just exhausted. Although...what else is going on with you. Something is different now. What is it?"

Zayn thought about it. The truth was...he thought he was catching feelings for the short English boy.

Every time he looked into those blue eyes his heart skipped a beat. Even talking to him seemed to mess with his head.

"You like him...don't you." Zayn almost choked. "Sorry. I just kinda figured....you know that's against the rules. If management finds out-"

"They won't find out. I won't show it. I'm not going to tell him either. Why lose a friend over some stupid crush."

"It will eat you up inside." Liam got a sad look across his face. "Trust me I know" he glanced at harry who was speaking to Niall.

Liam looked back up but Zayn was gone. Please let this turn out okay.

Louis sat in his bed. How can I be so tired yet not be able to sleep?

His mind seemed foggy. He was trying so hard to figure out what he was feeling. It seemed like it was just out of reach.

Then there was a knock on the door. "Come in I ain't naked."

A now slightly blushed Zayn opened the door. "I can't believe you just said that." "Ha! Come on its funny."

"Sorry I didn't mean to interrupt you." Louis sat up. "Oh I wasn't sleeping. What's up?"

"I wanted to apologise. For being so rude today. It's nothing against you. I'm just tired."

"I get it. Wanna sit with me? We can actually watch a movie without having management up our asses." Zayn smiled. "Sure"

He sat next to Lou. His heart seemed to beat faster. He was cursing at it to shut up.

Louis on the other hand seemed perfectly comfortable he leaned back and played whatever movie was in.

How can he be so calm? This has to mean he doesn't feel like I do right? Zayns head was racing.

"You can lay down you know. Get comfortable...don't worry I don't bite."

Zayn looked at him. "Who the fuck says that?" "Everyone. It's a saying. Are you alright? You seem idk stiff?"

He's messing with me right? Zayn couldn't tell for sure. "No I'm fine. Maybe I just like sitting." "Okay...what's up with your face?"

"What do you mean?" "It's kinda red. Aww are you blushing." "Omg Lou. Why would I be blushing."

"I don't fucking know. It's hilarious though." "It isn't if your the one who's blushed." "Ohhh is it cause you like the girl?"

Zayn paused. "What?" "The girl in the movie." Louis pointed to the said girl. "No."

"Do you um...not like girls?" By now the movie was paused and all that could be heard was the slight buzz of the fan.

"Why would you ask that." "Well i don't know. It just seems like you never really got into the whole girl thing. When you dated one it seemed like you two were just together for holding hands."

"This isn't exactly a conversation I want to have with you Louis." "...so it's true then" Zayn stood up.

"No it's not. I'm leaving now have fun with your movie." "Zayn I didn't mean to make you upset. Come back."

"Your a nit wit." And with that Zayn slammed the door closed and walked away. He wanted to scream into a pillow.

"What was that all about." Louis couldn't figure out why Zayn would get so defensive. Especially around him. They had been so close lately.

"Maybe I should apologize" it's true he shouldn't have pried. Louis decided he would apologize. Not till tomorrow though. He figured Zayn needed time to cool off.

He still couldn't sleep. Now though...he was just concerned. He'd known a few gay people over time. Alot of them struggled with the idea at first.

One of them, a close friend of his had even taken his life. Thinking about Zayn doing something like that made him worry. It made his heart hurt.

"I'm sorry" was all Louis could think about saying.