Forbidden (A Chris Brown Love Story)

Chapter 6: Forgiveness

Chris's POV:

We passed the trees at the end of my mom's block and Katyana pulled her car up in front of my mother's house.

"Look at me for a minute Katy, " I said softly breaking the silence in the car. It was just her and I. Ari had to stay at the hospital overnight so Melvin stayed with her.  

"Katy," I repeated and touched her shoulder to get her attention. She was still looking at the road.

"What!" she snapped, turning to me. A single tear rolled down her face from her left eye. I raised my hand to dry it and she stopped me mid-motion. 

"Is Auriella mine?" I asked she squeezed my hand as she started to cry.

"You guys looked so happy together," she smiled weakly. "And I always wanted to tell you but," I undid my hand from her grasp and put my finger to her lips.

"Stop crying you are way to pretty for all that. I'm not mad I just wanna know why you didn't tell me. You know I would've stayed if I knew you were pregnant."

She drew a deep breath," That's the problem right there I didn't want you to stay. I wanted you to chase your dreams." She stopped  crying. "Do you remember that day I made you come to church with me?" Her dad was a preacher who didn't particularly like me.                

"Yeah," I stated thinking back to the day.

"I'll never forget that," she started. "There was a free slot in the service. So I wanted you to go up and sing and you wanted to be a pussy," she laughed.

"And after I told you,"-I pointed at her-" NO! You still got up and announced to the whole congragation that I was gonna sing." I smiled eventhough I was pissed as hell that day.

"Even after I did that you still didn't wanna get up and was lo

okin' 'round the church like there was another 'Chris' in the church." she put air quotes around my name like white girls do when they talk. 'It wasn't until my dad looked at you that you finally got up and you looked liked you shitted yourself." That wasn't true but i didn't saying anything I was just a little scared. 

"The whole church was looking was looking at me so I had to get up. I hope you know the whole way down the altar I was cursing at you mentally."

"Well you did well," she went on. "I'll never forget how after the service you looked me right in the eye and told that you wanted to sing for the rest of your life. You finally lost your fear of performing." I remember the sparkle in her eyes when I conveyed my life dream to her.

"And I'll never forget the look on your dad's face either when I sat back in the pews. He looked so surprised. For a period of 5 seconds I felt like your dad thought I could actually do something right." It ment alot to have some type approval from him. He always thought I wasn't good enough for Katy so it was nice to him surprised even if it only lasted for a moment. 

"Chris when I found I was pregnant I thought back to that day and remembered how much you wanted to sing and I couldn't take that away from you by throwing a baby at you." Katyana said sincerely. "That look in your eyes was something a child couldn't replace or so I thought at the time but you would love Ari." I knew she had a good reason she was thinking about my future and that shows she really cared about me.  But in all honesty i really wish she would've told me in advance. 

""Katyana, I hope you I don't plan on missing one second of her life-" she put her hand up with a smile cutting me off.

"Don't worry I want you to spend as much time with her as you want. Just get ready for her little ego you saw it in the store." I smirked at the memory of when I met Ari.

"I'm definitely ready. If you or her need anything just call me," I kissed her cheek and opened the door to get out. "I'll come by and see her tomorrow." I said exiting the car. On my drive home I tried to really come to terms with the fact that I had a daughter.