Kisses

Chapter 2

Chapter 2

 “ Soooo...” said Liz looking anywhere but me. She is gorgeous tonight, not that she's not gorgeous everyday it's just that she's on another level of gorgeousness right now. I may be biased but what the hell.

She's wearing this baby pink dress underneath a white cardigan which I got for our first month together. Her hair, not in its usual curls with some polka dots ribbon on top. She is so cute. I like how beautiful and soft she looks. I try to grab her hand on top of the table but she moved it trying to fix something on her hair. Her hair is perfect.

“I...” we both said at the same time.

 “ Oh you go ahead” said Liz. This is it. I'm just gonna go for it.

“ You know you're the one for me, right?” I try to grab her hand, but she fix something on her hair. Why is she deflecting. When we entered the restaurant I tried to hold her hand but she just walked even faster. She went to follow the hostess to our table, leaving me behind.

 “ And I'm thinking we're meant to be together, forever”. Funny fact: her nonna said exactly that so I think it's true. She had this tarot cards. Which Cade says it's stupid, btw. He's with us when her nonna predicted our futures. She had a reading for Cade too. Said he'll gonna find a wife and have a contented life with beautiful children. Guess only one of that readings would come true because Cade is as gay as ... I don't know any gay person. I guess RuPaul?

 “Right.” She said coldly. okay.

 “Why, what's wrong?” but she just shake her head. Her wrinkled brows and forehead are indicators she's uncomfortable or disgusted I don't know which. Why would she be? Does she not want to be with me forever? I know forever is impossible, but I just started again.

“I wanna marry you.” just like band-aid “we could do it after graduation” compromise. I know she wanna go to New York and be this Big City Fashion Model. She dreamt of being one of those Victoria’s Secret girls. But she's like 5'1”, sooo. I am not trying to be unsupportive, but she is so small and I know how models look like. She’s pretty, I’ll give her that but those models…they have legs that would go for days.

 If Cade was a girl, gosh he’d be the perfect one. He has this beautiful face, sharp jaws , straight nose, flawless skin, perfect brows, long eyelashes, and those freckles…I remember the kiss. It’s weird at first but it got heated. And his tongue. And it started to show, I looked at my pants. And don’t get me started on his body. Woah I’m starting to sound gay but whatever. He has this lean and strong physique but also soft that makes it sound confusing but when he was in my arms he feels like a kitten who need taking care of. IDK. Which is like everytime , when I say everytime I mean everytime I am not with Liz because he is a cuddle wh*re ,so. And he’s tall. He has this lean thighs and legs, his calves are muscular but not like those body builders. I am taller though.

“ You wanna marry me after you kissed your gay bestfriend, kissed him with tongue!? Are you f*cking kidding me right now? What ? You got him pregnant or something “ she hissed and shouted at the same time it’s scary.

“Oh yeah I forgot, HE IS GAY!” I’m dumb founded. I don’t know how she’d known this. Oh my god. Did she  just read my mind. This is so wrong. My thoughts of my best friend this past few minutes are not exactly clean and pure, I am objecifying him. So I get why she would react this way. But that’s impossible right? Mind reading is like in movies and books so I am extremely confused right now.

“Oh, so it’s true? That’s not like a toxic rumor or something?” She looked shocked when she looked at my face and saw my expression matching hers. So she didn’t read my mind but how did she know this. Did Cade tell her about the kiss? HE wouldn’t do that , I know he won’t. Did he?

“oh my god, please tell me that’s a lie. God!” I shake my head and she started to cry. My heart broke seeing her like this. This night is not going as planned. “ He’s upset, and he kissed me” she tried to say something but I continued , “but it doesn’t mean anything. You know Cade is like that. He is touchy feely especially with me. He just missed me so much because I’m with you most of the times, but that just that. He’s my best friend for gods’ sakes. That’s what they do right. Not hurt them and comfort them when they are.”

Liz looks livid. She’s starting to not look exactly pretty and soft. And I’m scared she’ll start growing hairs all over and form into  a wolf or something feral like a wolf or bear, something scary.

“ I do not kiss them on the lips and especially not with tongue when I’m trying to comfort them! Do not take me for a fool, Maddox Watts Stilinsky! I may be blonde but I am not dumb!” I know she’s not dum, I didn’t say that. She continued to cry. She’s starting to hiccup and say something at the same time. “ Wh.. what.. a…ab.. about m..meee? huuu..hhuuh?” she took a deep breathe and looked straight into my eyes. What she said next confused me. I thought that would make me ecstatic especially when I try to propose to her minutes ago but right now, I feel disappointed and nervous.

“I’m pregnant, Mad.” But we used condoms every single time. And she’s on the pill. As far as I know. I noticed it, she started to look chubby .“ What the F*ck! Yes I am on the pill, but here I am still pregnant. And fat apparently.” I said it out loud right. Okay. F*ck.

“ That’s not what I mean. We are getting out of the topic here.” After a few moments I said, “So you’re pregnant.. huh” . I  feel like an ashhole right now, and I hate this person I am becoming. I DO NOT WANT TO GET MARRIED. I realized that now when responsibilities are right in my f*cking face. I am not ready. I just thought that after we got married we’d get a house and then pursue a career and theeeen…. Get pregnant. After maybe a few more years right. Not like right this second pregnant. My salary at the auto shop as a mechanic wouldn’t enough, even though my family owned it.

“yes.” She sound small. And she looked so small right now. Smaller. I know she’s scared and I know also that she didn’t want this but don’t have a choice so I have to man up and be strong for us. Guess being a Victoria’s Secret wasn’t in the option anymore.

“So you should marry me?” I said. “Okay.” She said

 I guess the night did go to plan after all. But I did not feel ecstatic as I expected. FML