Kisses

Chapter 4

Chapter 4

<Maddox>

We finished the dinner pretty quickly, apparently Liz is still mad and sick at the same time so I bring her home. I was driving to see Cade, did he tell Liz about the kiss?

I parked outside the gate, he lived in a gated community. Rich people with their gates, and their walls. I texted him to meet me outside. I went out of the car when I saw him and sat on the hood. God he’s beautiful. I hope I’m as handsome as him, or at least half as good looking. He doesn’t even try. His hair are disheveled ‘coz he just got out of bed, even his clothes , well my clothes, looked baggy on him, but still looked good. How did he did that? He is rich for god’s sake why would he even wear my clothes which are from thrift stores.

“Hey!” he hugged me, and kiss me on the cheek. He still not remove his body from the hug, I think he just held me tighter. I need that. This is a long day.

“ How did your date go? What’s the surprise by the way?” well he looked happy, so maybe he didn’t tell her.

“ Why are you even keeping secrets from me?” He tried to pressed his body even closer to mine if that’s even possible. I don’t think there’s space between us anymore. He tried to kiss me on the chin. I did not stop him. When he tried to kiss me on the lips, I stepped away.

“uhm” I cleared my throat hoping the tension would go away. He looked hurt and sad. I know that I never set boundaries with Cade, but I think we have to start now . Now that I’m gonna be a father and husband.

“Are you okay?” he asked. “ Maybe we should go inside, it’s awfully chilly tonight” he suggested hugging himself. I put my hands in my pocket trying to stop myself from hugging Cade to myself.

“ Oh yeah, uHm… I don’t know.” why do I feel sad. I think I’m gonna cry. Few hours ago I’ve been excited to ask Liz to get married, but now I don’t know why I feel like sh!t.

“Oh yeah? What happened?” he moved closer. Like a magnet, seeking me. At last we touched, he kissed me on the lips. It was not sweet and soft, well his lips are, but not the kiss. The kiss was punishing and branding me. And damn it, I kissed him back. I took control of the kiss. I f***ed his mouth. Tilted his head to get deeper, He whimpered. He grind his dick on my thighs and groaned like he's in pain.

“ I knew it. I did the right thing telling her about us.” He tried to kiss me again. Did I just hear him right?

“ That kiss was great by the way. We should get inside...” he pulled me toward his house “We should’ve done that years ago you know. When we learned about our..” He hummed and then grab the front of my pants. My dick was already hard, bastard.

“What did you just say?” I tried to push him away “ Are you the one who told Liz about the… that kiss on the hill?” I cannot believe this is really happening. “Well yes, that’s what you gonna say right? That she broke up with you and you want me?” He reached for me. I was stunned. How could he do this?

“No. I do not want that kiss! I am not gay! I’m not like you!” Liar , you lyin’ piece of crap, I told myself. You're hard when he grind his dick on you and you're saying you're not gay? I turned my back on him. I knew I loved that kiss but that’s not happening anymore. I hate myself right now. I don’t know what I want anymore. Yes you know what you want, who you want.

“What?” he croaked. “ I thought…”

“I asked her to marry me and she said yes.” I said coldly. I cannot bear to hurt my best friend. I knew he loved me and me him.