c h a n g e -o f- h e a r t

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Sorry it's been so long. I'm having such writer's block so this chapter is probably going to be shit. Sorry.

I shift my feet under me as I fold my legs and snuggle back into the couch, draping a heavy blanket over me. Rose has gone somewhere again, but I don't mind. Instead I get to sit with a cup of tea in front of the TV in nobody's company but my own. Some people might think that sounds dreadful but I actually like it. I cherish alone time. I turn the TV on to some rubbish show and just let my mind wander. Annoyingly, my mind wanders over to Matty. I wonder if he remembers texting me. Or why he did it from George's phone. He could have asked for my number. I think he might have it already, I can't remember. I'd had to get a new phone recently so most of my contacts were gone. I got the other boys' numbers from Rose, but she never gave me Matty's, rightly so. I knew she was just trying to keep me safe and I appreciated her for that. I wondered when the boys would get back and if the dynamic between Matty and I might change. Did I want it to? Stupid question, I think to myself. Of course I want it to change. I want to go back to being friends or whatever it is we had been before some sort of switch flipped on in Matty's mind. Probably common sense, that irritating voice taunts. It's true. I mean what did I think would happen? That I could be the one to tie down a man who had a different girl each night? That I could ever catch the eye of a famous band member? For fuck's sake. What was I thinking? I feel like an idiot. I surprise myself by cursing in my head as I usually don't do that, but today can be a special occasion, I guess. I'm so lost in thought that I almost don't hear my phone ring. Rose's name flashes on the screen and I slide my thumb to the answer button. "Hey," I greet her.
"Heeey," she drags it out, "so, question. It's okay if you say no."
"What's up?" I ask.
"Soooo the boys are back from tour," I feel my heart stutter in my chest as she says those words, "and are having a party tonight."
"Oh cool?" I'm not sure why she's telling me this.
"Do you wanna come?" She asks.
I pause and think. Do I want to go? Do I want to see Matty? We sort of parted on a sour note. But he did text you while he was on tour, a voice in my head reminds me. This is true. Plus I want to see the other guys too, frontman he damned. As he surely was. "Yeah," I tell Rose, "yeah, I'd actually like to go. Thanks for inviting me."
I can hear her smile though the phone as she squeals, "yay! I'll be home soon and help with your hair and makeup," she offers. Well, more like tells me. It's the type of offer that's more like a command, something Rose is notorious for.
"Okay, bossy," I say, "see you soon!"
She starts to retort my 'bossy' statement but I hang up on her before she can continue. I lean back into the chair and exhale loudly.
What have I gotten myself into?

A/N: so this is like a reeeeeaaalllyyyy short chapter, I know and I'm sorry. I just wanted to have something up soon. Plus I want the next chapter to be a big one, so be prepared for stuff to go
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It'll be a wild, good time. At least for you readers. ;)
Update soon, I promise!
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