Celestial

The Labyrinth of Suffering

I had to go, I had to leave that roof top. I couldn't lead her on, not like that girl, I wasn't going to do that to Elizabeth. She deserved better, someone other than me. I can't be around her anyways, I get these feelings in my chest when I'm around her. When she touches me I feel like electricity has coursed through my veins and shocked my heart. I don't know what all this means, I've never felt this way before and it scares me.

Fuck, why did I leave? Mikey drove me here, how am I to get back to the frat house? I could walk but I'm too mentally and physically exhausted. Maybe I should stay, or ask Elizabeth for a ride? No, I can't go back, I'll melt just looking at her. I couldn't turn around as I was leaving, the pain in her voice was like a dying wish leaving a nearly deceased woman's mouth. I decided to walk, I cross my arms to trap my body heat as I begin to walk down the sidewalk toward the frat house.

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I watched from the roof as she walked down the sidewalk, her arms crossed, her curly brown hair bouncing every step. God she's lovely. I leave the roof to go to the parking lot. I can still see her figure walking so elegantly, her jacket hugging her curves perfectly. I drive up to her, slowly following her side on the road.

"Get in." I stop the car for her to get in and continue to stare forward. She hesitates at first then climbs into the car, leaning against the shut door so that she's as far from me as possible. I drive to the frat house in uncomfortable silence with Marina.

I park behind her black Malibu, she doesn't take her time getting out. I watch as she climbs into her car, she lays back, deeply inhaling like she was holding her breath. I turn around to drive back home, looking in the mirror once to see her drive off.

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I wish I hadn't gotten out of that car, I wish I could understand these feelings. I drive back home to my dorm.

I lay back on the bed and look at the alarm clock on the night stand beside my bed, 12:47 am. I'm not tired anymore, not tired enough to sleep. I began to read Looking for Alaska. Arianne eventually stumbles into the room with a boy, they're both very intoxicated. I can't really see his face but his hair is messy and he's a bit taller than Ari. "Never mind." Ari says looking at the boy, she has her arm around him and her hand on his chest. She giggles and kisses his cheek, sending him off on his way. "Who was that?" I ask glancing at the alarm clock again, 2:03 am. Arianne's eyes widen "Um, I didn't get his name or his number" She lays down, her arms outstretched at her sides and her legs dangling at the end of the bed as she stares at the ceiling. I can't help but laugh.

"So, you didn't know him? You were about to fuck some random stranger in our dorm?" I try to sound serious to scare her. "Umm.." She trails off, falling asleep. I laugh and continue to read my book until I fell asleep also.

The next morning I wake up to Ari groaning, holding her head in her hands. "Good morning," I giggle. "Correction," She sticks up her forefinger "morning. There's no such thing as a good morning, especially after a wildly, intoxicated night."

"You have a very good point, love" I flash her a smile while handing her aspirin and a glass of water. "Thanks" She mumbles, popping the pill in between her lips and takes a gulp of the water. She sets the glass on the night stand and lays back down. "Ari, it's Monday."

"So?" She scoffs, turning on her side. "Don't we have break?" She groans. "No, that's next week. Get up." I smack her foot causing her to jump. "I have a major head ache"

"Well, lesson learned: don't drink on a Sunday night." I laugh as I change into my clothes for the day. I threw on a purple and yellow varsity jacket with a black t-shirt underneath and blue jeans with black converse. I did my make up the same as every day, I draw in my eyebrows, put on black mascara and eyeliner. Sometimes I put on foundation to cover my many freckles but I didn't feel like it today so I finished with light pink lipstick. My hair was still partially curly from yesterday but it was a bit messy, I didn't care.