off limits || m.c

19: thinkin bout you

4:50 a.m.

i'm such an insomniac. i can't sleep until like 5 or 6 on particular days. today must be one if them. our mum's are here. me and ashton's mum, calum's mum, michael's mum, and luke's mum. we all love our mums. alot.

i'm really worried michael tells his mum about us, which doesn't exist, but i'm afraid he'll tell her the stuff we've done before. ah, michael isn't one of those people thankfully.

earphones in, reality out.

i've been thinking bout you
oh no no no
i've been thinking bout you
you know know know
do you think about me still?
do ya? do ya?

god damn it frank ocean. i get up, making sure not to wake my mum, because she's sleeping in ashton's bed tonight while ashton sleeps on the floor.

i tiptoe downstairs and i sit on the couch, staring at the ceiling. staring at the ceiling is just something i do these days for comfort i guess. or maybe it's just my way of zoning shit out, haha.

i hear footsteps coming from the stairs and ignore it. maybe its just one of the guys getting something to eat, or maybe they needed to take a leak.

then i feel someone tap on my shoulder.

"sydney?"

i blink alot and see luke.

"oh. hi luke."

"what are you doing down here, its almost 5 in the morning?"

"i couldn't sleep."

"why?"

"i dont know."

"well, are you hungry?"

"kind of."

"lets go get a snack then."

we walk over to the kitchen and he opens the fridge and scans it. i sit on the counter watching him.

"sandwich?"

"sure."

he starts making the sandwiches when we hear more footsteps coming from the stairs.

"hello?"

it's liz.

"h-hi mum."

"luke? sydney? what are you two doing down here?"

"we-we couldn't sleep."

"well c'mon. try to."

"can't. i'm making me & syd sandwiches."

"aw. what a great boyfriend you are."

"w-what? n-no-"

"well, me and joy are going for a morning run."

"but its--"

"its 5 a.m. we'll be back."

"o-okay."

when they walk downstairs, i look at joy and she just looks at me.

after they leave i look at luke.

"did you see the way joy looked at me?!"

"calum told her."

"told her what?"

"that you broke his heart."

"what?! he broke mine!"

"shhhh. people are still sleeping."