"I'm fine" [asanoya] {Currently under editing.}

Denial

*Asahi's Pov*

"I'm fine."

I say that a lot and I say it enough to make myself believe it, I say it so no one will pry and worry, but deep down, I can't help but feel shattered.

I know I should reach out to people, I know I should ask for help. Yet, I am stopping myself. Not wanting to burden anyone with my pitiful, worthless, pesky existence and problems. Who would even want to listen to me...?

"Asahi?"A voice took me away from my increasingly pessimistic mind. I guess I didn't hear him come into the gym. I looked up to see a boy with hair spiked upwards and big brown eyes filled with energy and hope staring down at me.

Nishinoya

My damp face was a remark, that made me realize I had been crying.

'I can't even tell when I'm crying anymore because It happens on a Daily basis. Wow, pathetic.'

"Are you okay...?" He asked cautiously.

"Oh...yeah, no- I'm fine." I lied

"Your face is red and puffy."

"Allergies...?" The moment I heard the words come from my mouth I regretted them. Nishinoya knew almost everything about me, including the fact that I didn't have allergies.

"..." he paused for a second then focused his gaze directly into my eyes. His stare was intense and bright.

"Asahi I hope you know you can tell me anything. If you need someone to talk to I'm here, I'm here to listen, because I care about you."

I was left speechless. His words echoed in my head, resonating in my memories.

'Because I care about you.' He had said...

"Because I care." I could feel the blood rush to my cheeks, I hadn't noticed but his face was so close to mine. Nishinoya noticed and stepped back he started to walk away, and before I knew it I was speaking.

"Wait..." I spoke in a hushed voice. I said the word before I could stop myself and now I feel the urge to speak more. I stood up from where I sat on the gym floor.

Noya turned around to face me, waiting for me to speak up.

"What do you need?"

"I- can... we talk..." I said as I walked towards him slowly. My heart was racing but at the same time my chest was aching. Something in my body was hurting, but I couldn't tell what it was.

"Come with me." We walked over to the closet with all the sports equipment, I followed him into the closet and he told me to sit down. I sat down and he closed the door just enough so that there was a slight crack of light that shown into the room. Noya turned to face Me.

"Asahi, I don't know whats hapening with you but you need to tell me..., I don't want to pry but you've been like this since you came back to the club. You keep saying you're okay...but there's this...this look in your eyes. Look, I'm here to listen so I want you to talk to me about it."

I looked away, because I knew looking at him would make me feel awful. He came and sat down next to me close enough that our shoulders touched.

"Since... that game with dateko I've been scared, scared that I would let you guys down and..." my voice started to choke.

"And... my mom, she... shes really sick and I'm really worried for her..." tears started to accumulate in my eyes. I didn't want to cry in front of Noya but I couldn't help it anymore and so, I allowed the tears to fall.

"Asahi..." I hadn't even turned my head around completely but he wrapped his arms around my neck and pulled me close into a hug.

( hi hello, I just realized that I didn't put a little note at the start but anyway hi I am the author of this story this is my first time writing on wattpad so please be nice thank you for reading!! :)