"I'm fine" [asanoya] {Currently under editing.}

Hate

*Nishinoya's POV*

That morning I woke up to see the sun beginning to rise, pouring sunlight into the window to greet us. The smell of the fresh morning air and the feel of the soft breeze coming from the window, I gaze at Asahi's features as he lays on the bed facing me, and think about the events of last night...

My thoughts linger away from last night and settle on a feeling. This feeling spread when Asahi was with me, it was a warm fuzzy feeling, one that made my heart beat a thousand times a minute. Of course, I knew the name of this feeling...but I told myself I wouldn't tell him.

I didn't tell him, because I was mainly scared. Scared of what he would do, what I would say, how he would react. There was too much risk, is what I though. We could lose everything, our friendship was on the line, and that was something I couldn't gamble. So I locked my feelings in a tiny box and threw away the key. Simple. Is what I told myself.

I see the time on the alarm but do absolutely nothing, I just continue to gaze at the device lifelessly almost. Only when the minute changes do I come back to my senses, realizing that we needed to leave the house soon, If we didn't want to miss practice.

I gently nudge Asahi's shoulder as a way of waking him up without it being abrupt and sudden, he began to stir. His eyelids slowly lifting, revealing his dark brown eyes.

"Asahi, we need to start to getting ready now." I say as gently as I can, which luckily, is enough.

Asahi slowly starts to stir calmly opening his eyelids and sitting up on the bed. He rubbed his eyes attempting to rub the sleep out of his system.

"Good morning." He says groggily, I smile and get out of the bed and smile widely at Asahi.

"Today is a new day! And it's going to be a good one too!" I really wanted it to be, I felt like Asahi needed it anyways. He deserved it, he was so kind hearted and benevolent towards anyone he met, he was most simply, sweet.

"So come on! Get out of bed or we are going to be late!" I exclaimed cheerfully. I turn to my backpack that was pressed against the wall and take out some clothes, I quickly go into the bathroom and change.

I step out of the bathroom a smile pressed upon my face, I was ready to take on the day. Fortunately, Asahi really did get out of bed and was changed as well so the small smile I had, became a grin.

"Let's go eat!" I say extremely exited, and hungry, then I quickly leave the room and tiptoe down the stairs and go into the kitchen.

I reach the bottom and notice Asahi's mother sleeping peacefully on the couch. Her thick brown hair messily falls in front of he pale face, her eyes have obtained dark bags under her eyes. I look away and sit down at the small table in the kitchen.

"I hope she'll feel better soon..." I thought.

"I don't think Asahi could take it if..." I thought miserably, by now, the smile had turned itself into a Frown but I quickly changed back to a bright smile as soon as Asahi walked into the room.

I wonder, would he hate me?

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Ah! Guys! I'm so very sorry this chapter is a bit shorter than usual and I haven't really had motivation to write. I know there is no excuses, please forgive me, and thank you so much for your continued support. 😊