Maia P.O.V
...Ever since I was little, I never care about my own feelings. I was known to be a child who is always smiling. But...that side of mine disappeared when the war started and Kyoko was one of the victims who got killed.
After her death I realized that I...really do love her as if she was my sister. I was really sad that she's gone but...just after two days, I managed to recover and trained to get stronger so...
So I can save innocent people and animals...
But...I also realized that most of my friends are...not real. They...left me because of how I recklessly look for Kyoko and I could've die out there. They were afraid that I might dragged them along too...
Many people avoided me because of that. Except for my family and Daiki, my loyal best friend. They helped me, telling me that I shouldn't care about what they think of me. They know I have a reason why I acted reckless.
If I think about it now...even though I had my family and my real friends support me, I...always felt lonely.
I...was happy...I was sad...I feel many kind of emotions, I laughed a bit but...it just disappeared before I could feel that. It feels like I...have no idea what I'm feeling...
But...I never told my friends or even family because...I don't want them to worry about me...they look so happy...there is no way I..want to destroy that smiles of theirs...
Even though...I lived a good life because of my family...
I...
I have my own suffering too...
Especially about friends...I...can be cold towards them but...the truth is...if I know they will be loyal friends to me...I...I will do anything to keep them in my life. I probably will act clingy but...I just don't want to lose a friend like that...
*Close the book*
Maia: *Sigh & smile* ....Never thought I actually write this in my bad artworks files...
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(Maia...are one of the people have that part of my inner feelings and personalities. Or rather most of it. Just feeling inspired to write this.)
