Emma and Her Depression

what they can now see

It's been two weeks sices mom kicked me out i've been cutting everyday i get out of bed and i feel very dizzy i fall and i hear screaming sam is that you everything goes black next thing i hear beep beep beep beep beep beep 'damn it hospital' i open my eyes i see sam sleeping there are bandaids on my arms 'shit' i must have passed out do to blood loss the doctor walks in "oh good you're awake how do you feel?" diana takes over "im fine" she says the doctor sighs "miss douleur you have maybe 400 scars and maybe 100 newer cuts on your arms alone" at this point sam wakes up with a shocked look on her face the doctor speaks again " i'm gonna give you a prescription for some antidepressants you can discharge soon" he leaves and closes the door sam looks at me "why didn't you tell me i could have helped" she says with tears in her eyes "i didn't think you cared why would you" anger grows in her face "of cor-" just be for she finishes cassy and lacey walks in and ask if i'm ok i nod my head and sam tells them everything their faces go from worried to sad and i say "it makes me feel better and i didnt wanna bother anyone" sam starts yelling "ARE YOU KIDDING ME EMMA WE LOVE AND CARE ABOUT YOU AND YOU THINK THAT TELLING US WOULD BOTHER" her voice is shaky "US NO IT BOTHERS US THAT YOU DIDN'T TRUST US ENUFF TO TELL US WHAT WAS GOING ON" she takes a breath "THE CUTTING ME, LACEY AND CACEY UNDERSTAND WE DONT CARE THAT YOU CUT WE ALL DID IT WE CARE THAT YOU LET IT GET THIS BAD YOU ALMOST DIED AND YOUR ONLY THINKING ABOut yourself" she starts crying i take over "my entire life no one cared about me the only person was rick and he's gone so i thought i- i thot - that- that i was alone and no one cared that i was unlovable a-and i-i-i- c-c-can't i j-just wanna go to sl- sl-sleep and n-never wake up" i burst into tears and can't stop they all come over and hug me "we love you" cassy says m like that again got ite and sam head home as soon as i walked in the door i felt a pain and arms around me amy she hit me upside the head then hugged me "don't  ever scare me like that again" "i'm really sorry amy" i say "its ok girly now you're grounded" i laugh "ok but don't you want my blades" she looks at me sadly "no taking them away wont do anything you have to stop on your own you have acsese to blades every day so there's no point in taking them away" i nod and go to bed

im sorry its short writers block