calum
i know you said you wanted space
but i saw everything that's been going on
and i wanted to make sure you were okayariana
i'm okay
i've been better
but i'll be okaycalum
that's good
i have a question
it's kind of a selfish question but i need to knowariana
what is itcalum
will you ever be able to forgive me?ariana
idk
i want to
u don't even know how much i want to
but it just hurtscalum
i blocked nia
cut her off
for good this time
i'm willing to do anything to prove to you that i'm in 100%ariana
that's sweet calum
but u told me meeting with her in the first place was a mistake
....and u went out with her again less than 24 hours latercalum
this isn't a valid excuse but
i was drunk
completely fucked up
what i had with her was really weird and toxic and i don't miss her or love her at all
but we have a lot of history and i guess i used to find it comforting
but now i see that i was stupid and gullible
i wish i could take it all backariana
i wanna forgive u
i know what it's like to fall for someone toxic and manipulative
but everything's still fresh
i'm still in a weird place
mentally
so idkcalum
i'm sorry about everythingariana
i know u are
i have to go
talk to u soon
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