In 2007, I found that I am an autistic person. A friend of mine said "It's too autistic if you didn't think that you are an autistic person"
You don't have to be sad person when you find yourself autistic. To be autistic doesn't mean that you are bad or sad. You can eat tasty foods, see beautiful things and listen to the great music. You can feel happy, sad and warm by your heart. So you are enough because you have full function of your emotion.
So why you are sad is that you can't live this world easily. It means that autism is not physical problem but mental problem. Or I should say that autism is social problem. Society needs, you know, two or more person. Two person meet and greet, communicate and love. Then society start.
So autism is the sickness of society I think. The evidence is that I think it's hard and difficult when I talk to someone in real world. When I live by myself I won't think I am autistic. But ordinary people says that I am strange. "Why can't you act normally?" This is the problem. Someone says that autistic person have many talents. It is maybe true. But If you can't use or express them, it doesn't have the meaning.
I have to talk about myself. I can read a book per one day. I can chat with you in English. Is it the talent? I think that reading or chatting is the thing everybody can do as me. But they the ordinary people say I am special and talented. It's clear to me that I can do so I think everybody can do. But it seems that everybody can't do like me. It's mysterious...oh no, what was the thing I wanted to tell? I have to try to tell the subject from the head again...
