What Happens In Rome.... [Lgbt] [✔]

Chapter 19

Yunlan's hold on Wei's back tightened and he lifted him up, carried him towards the bedroom and let him go just for a moment so he could close the door.

"I want you so much." His voice was like a growl; Wei just looked at him saying, "I'm here." Then he lowered himself on the bed.
Yunlan jumped on him, kissing him again while his hands started undressing him.

Wei's skin was so soft, so smooth under his hands and lips, Yunlan thought he would go crazy by how much he wanted him.
He unbuttoned his own shirt as well, hugging him tight while he kissed him again. The feeling of skin against skin was sending him to ecstasy.

He took off the rest of his own clothes, only his briefs remained when he crawled back up that delicious body.
Wei's trousers were still on so Yunlan helped him get rid of those as he had done with his shirt.

He touched him and kissed him all over, and Wei let him.

Yunlan was burning with desire, but there was something tugging at his heart.

Wei wasn't touching him back.

Yunlan paused, trying to think straight. Wei was under him, totally at his mercy, but he wasn't doing anything.
Yunlan sneaked a glance south, Wei was as aroused as he was, he wanted it too then, right? Then what...

"Why did you stop?" Wei's voice was weak. "Please continue."
Those words had a weird effect on Yunlan's heart. Instead of continuing what he was doing, he felt his heart aching.
He wanted Wei to want him, but he... he wasn't doing a damn thing!

"Why aren't you touching me?" He asked.
Wei looked confused, even hurt. "Don't you want me?"

Yunlan stood up, what was this? Some kind of sacrifice? Wei's body wanted him, but that could just be a natural response to his touch; did his heart want him as well?

Wei's eyes followed him. "Yunlan..."

Hearing his name Yunlan closed his eyes for a second, that voice was intoxicating, but this wasn't what he had dreamed about.
If Wei didn't move at all, simply letting him do what he wanted, he would feel like he was taking advantage of him, that wasn't two people making love...

And suddenly it dawned on him.

"Is this what happened before?" Yunlan had promised himself he would never ask, but the words came out by themselves. "Your first time, is this what happened? You just let him do whatever he wanted with you?"

Wei's eyes looked more and more confused, tears appeared at the corners. "I... you are more experienced and I thought... he said that I wouldn't know what to do so I had to let him..."

Yunlan closed his eyes again, anger filling his soul, but was he angry at the bastard who hurt him or at Wei who let him? He wasn't sure.
"You're not a puppy Wei. You don't have to obey and be a good boy for your master to like you."

Wei received those words like stabs through the heart, tears stained his cheeks, he had messed up again and Yunlan didn't want him anymore, why was he like this, he was such a st...

"I swear that if you dare say one more time that you're an idiot I'll walk out of here." Yunlan was looking at his face very carefully, and by now he was beginning to understand how his head worked.

Wei's thoughts stopped under his gaze, how did he know... but did that mean that if he didn't say it he wouldn't walk out?
He would stay with him?

Wei lifted himself on his elbow so his hand could reach Yunlan's arm.

"Yunlan..." Wei called again, and Yunlan found it too difficult to resist. He was on the bed again, kissing him much more tenderly than before.
He grabbed him by the waist and rolled them over. Wei gasped, not knowing what was going on.

"How can you understand if someone really likes you if you don't know what love is?"

Wei opened his mouth, dumbfounded.
"Of course I know, what are you saying..."

"No you don't. Love is when you want the other person to be happy, love is..."

"That's what I'm doing, I thought this would make you happy!"

"But are you happy? Don't you think that if I li...loved you, I would want you to be happy as well? Are you, Wei? Are you happy with this or are you sacrificing yourself in the name of not being lonely?"

Wei was on top of him, looking directly into his eyes, he couldn't hide, he couldn't turn away, Yunlan's arms were keeping him strongly against his body.

"Do you even like me, Wei?"

There was a strange light in Yunlan's eyes, he looked... vulnerable, so different from the careless strong person he knew. Wei felt drawn to that light. "Of course I like you Yunlan, why are you asking this?"

"You never told me," he said. "But are you sure that you like me and not just the idea that I like you? If I didn't like you, if I didn't help you, would you still like me?"

If he didn't like him... Wei didn't like those words. Yunlan was the best thing that ever happened to him after Chu, if he were to disappear... "Don't leave me." He cried suddenly. "Please don't leave me Yunlan, I can't bear it, please, stay with me, just tell me what you want me to do, I'll do anything..."

Yunlan sighed. "Don't, Wei stop, I will never stop helping you, whatever you need you can always count on me, even if we are not together..."

"No!" Wei was yelling now. "We are together, stop saying that, you don't need to help me, I won't be a burden, I promise, I'll be stronger and and and more independent and... I... I will tell everyone that we are together, I will hold your hand at work, I will find another home for Qiqi, whatever you want, please, stay with me..."

Yunlan couldn't stand it anymore, Wei's tears pained him more than anything else. "What about your father? Your family?"

Wei had no answer for that, he began stuttering incoherent words. "I will... find another way... something... there has to be... anything..."

"No Wei, it's too late now, there is no other way, if only you defended yourself back then things might have been different but now it's too late."

Too late to think of another plan, this was what he meant, but to Wei it meant too late for them. He pushed free of his hold, started screaming with his eyes shut, Yunlan got so scared he didn't know what to do. Finally he did the only thing he could, he sat up straight and held him tight. "I'm sorry Wei, please calm down."

"It's all my fault, I'm useless, you don't want me, I can't live without you, what am I going to do now..."
Wei sobbed and Yunlan held him tight. "I do want you Wei."

"You..."
"I do, I like you so much, we will always be together, can you stop crying now?"

"But you said... too late..."

"Too late to change your plan, silly, how can you think that I could leave you, I will never leave you."

Yunlan rocked him gently, repeating that he won't ever leave him until Wei finally calmed down. He held him against his body until his breathing slowed down, he kept rocking him back and forth until exhaustion won and Wei slowly fell asleep.