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"we must move on"

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We sat at the couch together, sitting in silence, Autumn jumping up and down in Jimin's lap. It was all fun and games until she nailed his dick and he doubled over, coughing. I snorted, taking Autumn from Jimin's lap.

"Thanks, kid." He gasped out, his eyes on Autumn as he smiled painfully. I smiled and rubbed Autumn's head. Then a question popped up in my mind.

"What would you do if I died?"

"I'd kill myself." Jimin didn't waste a second to respond. And he said it truthfully. But that left me in shock.

"W-why?" I stuttered, looking Jimin up and down. "You have so many people-"

"So many people who aren't you." Jimin interrupted, staring me right in the eyes. "Min, I love you."

"Jimin, we haven't even dated for a month." I looked down at my hands, feeling slightly uncomfortable. "You can't just say you'd die for me, just like that. Not when we live only dated for such a small time."

"Are we still dating?" Jimin looked away as I looked at him. "After our fight?"

"After your fight." My heart pained as I remembered his shouts. "This was your fault."

"It was." Jimin admitted, his head still low. "And I regret ever believing those lies about you. It's kept me up at night, out argument." That's when I noticed the blemishes in his skin, the lack of wash to his skin. I saw the darkness under his eyes, bags slowly forming. His eyes were dull, the usually cheeriness gone. I stroked his cheek, causing him to look up at me

"You do look tired." He placed his hand on top of mine, and I slowly took my hand away. Then my phone buzzed. "Jiyoo." I mumbled, picking it up.

"Oh God." Jimin backed away a little bit and I flashed back to a few days ago.

"Hi Bubba." Jiyoo kisses my cheek after I had opened the door for her. "I just gotta do something real quick." She cleared her throat. "Where the fuck is Park Jimin?!"

"Jiyoo!" I tried to hold her back but she already had her eyes on Jimin who had fallen out of the couch, remembering her threat. 'You hurt her, your balls are mine'

"You hurt her!" Jiyoo tried to fight through Jin and Yoongi, pointing at Jimin as he cowered behind the couch, everyone confused. "You are horrible!"

"Hey Ji." I answered as Jimin held Autumn with wide eyes. "What's up?"

"Is Jimin with you?" Was her first question

"No."

"Tell him I'm going to cut his balls off if he ever looks at you again."

"Jiyoo."

"What?"

"Shut up and get on medication."

"I'm perfectly normal." I heard a smile in her voice and I rolled my eyes, Jimin slowly relaxing beside me. "And I'm handling the Jimin situation, you don't have to protect me anymore."

"I can do what I want woman!" She declared. "I'm practically your older sister-"

"Yeah an annoying one."

"Shut it!" She laughed and I smiled, Jimin no longer tense.

"Jimin," I looked over to him. "Jiyoo wants to cut off your balls."

"You're with him?!" She shrieked, something falling over on her side of the line. "I'm coming-"

"You come over I'm shaving my hair off." I looked at my fingernails, casually threatening my best friend. "Go to bed."

"I hate you." A smile was in her voice. "And he better not be sleeping over."

"Goodnight!" I hung up and sat down my phone, sighing, loudly.

"She's a good friend." Jimin stroked Autumn's head slowly, looking me in the eyes. "Really good."

"I know." I twirled some of my rings as I left the conversation open after that. Jimin huffed and took my hands in mine.

"You bite your lip when you're nervous. You constantly change the color of your hair because you are afraid of being uniform to others. You twirl your rings as a habit because you hate not moving your fingers. Your eyes change colors with the seasons. You play the piano to contribute to something." Jimin spoke quickly. "I noticed all of it. All of the small things. And that made me fall in love even more than the big ones." Jimin took a deep breath as I felt my cheeks burn. "Minjee, I love you with all of my heart and I'm so sorry about the words I ever said to hurt you and the lies I believed. I was a fool and I've learned from it I promise."

"Jimin-"

"I love you, so much." Jimin looked down, smiling. "Our rings." My lips stung as I saw our connected rings, the calico cat references inside.

"I got them for a reason." I slowly dragged my gaze up to his eyes. "So our hands would stay together for just a little bit longer than intended."

"The small things."

"Matter most."

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"I missed you." Jimin smiled sadly as he we sat in the back of a taxi. "I'm so glad we are okay again."

"Of course Jimin." I kissed his cheek, finally feeling at home again.

"Jimin, if you don't come lay with me you're sleeping outside." I stared up at my ceiling, Jimin still standing by the door, holding a pillow nervously. He made a small noise and crawled into bed next to me, apologizing to Autumn as he moved her over. I sighed when he didn't pull me into his arms like he would normally do. So I took matters into my own hands. I laid my head on his chest and snuggled close. "This is nice."

"I love you." He finally wrapped his arms around me, the feeling welcoming me.

"I love you too." I leaned my head on his shoulder and smiled, my two babies beside me and my boyfriend supporting me all the way.

It's all I need.

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someone tell me why i'm still trying to smile.

it doesn't work anymore.