Every morning before I go to school I put on makeup to hide my bruises and scars like my black eye my dad pays million of dollars just to get expensive makeup to cover it up that doesn't mean he cares it just he doesn't wanna go to jail and ruin his reputation I even wear face masks to cover my mouth wit bruises and cuts and dried up blood i deal with a lot of bullying at school and I'm to exhausted to even worry about I have enough to worry about at home I'm tired of pretending to be happy when I'm dying inside I couldn't say I just wanna go home what am I kidding I have no home if that's home then I never wanna go back people tell me all the time I'm beautiful but am I really I am so numb that I can't even feel anything a girl with a broken heart shattered dreams anyways I've been working on my poem called shattered dreams
My feelings I hide
My dreams I can't find
I'm loosing my mind
I'm fallen behind
I'm loosing my pace
I've fallen from grace
All over da place
I'm done wit da race
the demons control me
I can't get dem out
They give me advice
On wat life is about
I smile and act like nothing's wrong
It's called puttin shit aside and acting all strong
It's not much but eh I write about how I feel I met this boy name Ethan he really encourages my poem I really have a big crush on him he caring nice and all he makes me feel worth it even through hard times I see no harm in his eyes he calls me baby Rose I think I'm in love with him but I'm too scared to confessed I mean look at me I'm a mess nobody wants me not even my dad my mother would've wanted why did she die she didn't deserve it she only deserve love and that's it she was so kind and loving i look at the photo of my mother
i look at the photo of my mother god she so beautiful I can she the pain in her eyes but I don't know why but I can relate with all this pain I'm going through I— just wanna leave and go away somewhere else I was looking at the photo when I saw the words printed on he back "Whenever You need me I'm here I'm only one call away I wrote you a note " my father hates notes from my mom but god he has so many each year they get thicker and thicker maybe he's just writing them but why would he put such time in writing if he dosmey approve of them something going on and I'm going to find out even if they don't like it I'm kinda getting a little to curious for this and I'm old for this and I want answer and I want them now I bang my head on the photo and I call lavender "lavender hi I respond she responds"hi wats up Rose I respond nervously "lavender i need to meet you in the tree house immediately please it's kinda urgent" she responds " sure yea I'm on my way " after school instead of going home I sneak i head for the treehouse dodging my father who is looking for me I wouldn't dare txt him and I know when I get home I'm going to get abused again but i don't care because when it comes to my mom I would do anything she was my word even though she's gone and it's not helping in my case but I snuck in and got Lily because I wouldn't dare leave her alone and I grabbed some of my things and I waited for her at the tree house I know my father would want to hurt me and I won't let him take it out on lily
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Tell Me How You Hate Me
FantasiA girl who tells about the experiences going on in her life and how she sealed with abuse while she was young innocent and was mistreated her entirely life by her family.
