I got drunk, it felt so fucking good, i felt like a dumb kid i couldnt think i was blind to all the pain but now its back and it hurts badly, i know i dont evenn deserve to feel drunk but i guess i needed it that badly, i afterwards lied to my parents as i do everyday like how tf can i hurt them so many times that bad, and i make myself an award to feel drunk, im a dumbass to think that i deserve that beautiful feeling of forgetting what world looks like, i wish itd stay this way but i know it cant it just cant it fucking cant coz this is the one addiction my parents WILL see and that would be the end for me and their hope in having a notbroken kid. I dissapoint them a lot but i just dunno anymore, cant write more coz ill cry or cut.
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dont worry plz
Nouvellesits me realising my thoughts, im warning you of bad english a d mistakes as engkish is not my first language and i wrote it while i had anxiety attack. be sure not to read this if you re easily disturbed.
