[HIATUS] Seductive Orchid • Minatozaki Sana

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Sana's POV

I feel broken.

I've cried too much but the pain still won't come out.

She was the only person I trusted and loved with all my heart and she knew that. She knew that but she still had the audacity to do that to me.

I can't describe and explain how broken and hurt I feel right now. I feel like dying. My heart could give up any moment now, I could give up any moment now. I can feel myself going back to how I was before I met her.

I never knew how much I love and need her until this moment.

Now that I'm thinking about it, was it a mistake that I didn't listen to her explanation? Something inside me wanted to listen to her but I just couldn't look at her face and stay with her in the same room knowing what she has done to me.

Lying to me and cheating on me? Those two things will be the reason why you will suffer under my wrath.

Everything feels cold and dark as I lay on my bed. I plainly stare at the empty space beside me.

My bed feels empty without you.

I should be loathing the living hell out of you for what you've done to me, but the more I try to hate you, I love you even more.

All the lights in my room was turned off and my windows were all closed. Just from the vibe of my room you could already feel the depression.

I just want to sleep and never wake up.

The eerie silence and my sobs were the only thing you could hear inside my room. My pillow was severely damp and wet due to all the tears that I cried out for god knows how long now.

I feel stupid now.

Why did I even think that I can trust someone in this world full of lies?

I was too deep in love that I forgot. I forgot who I was and what I am to everybody else. To the public and everyone else I am Minatozaki Sana. The only child and successor of the Minatozaki clan. Almost every single person I met in the span of time I have lived in this shitty world has taken advantage of my family and I in some kind of way.

That's too far fetched, Sana. Y/N would never do that to you.

I used to laugh at Momo when she would cry over heartbreak, but now I understand. I understand everything. I just learned it the hard way.